if i can be like that - 3 doors down

He spends his nights in California
Watching the stars on the big screen.
Then he lies awake and wonders
Why can't that be me?
Cause in his life he's filled with all these good intentions.
He's left a lot of things he'd rather not mention right now.
But just before he says goodnight,
He looks up with a little smile at me and he says

If I could be like that
I'd give anything
Just to live one day
In those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?

Now and dreams we run.

She spends her days up in the north park,
watching the people as they pass.
And all she wants is just a little piee of this dream, is that too much to ask?
With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a quiet little street.
All she wants is just that something to hold onto, that's all she needs.

Yeah!

If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?

I'm falling into this, in dreams we run away.

If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?

If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?

If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes.
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?

Falling in.
I feel I am falling in to this again



Next to The Eagles, 3 doors down would probably my favourite band, hmmm... maybe i like them just as much, hahahaa! nevermind, they rock!

i wish

i wished i had been born with a flair for words
weaving beautiful poems effortless
then maybe u would recognise me?

i wished i had been born more attractive
probably a little more slimmer or handsome
then maybe u would notice me?

i wished i had been born with more courage
like a lion, or of a mouse would be enough
then maybe i could defend u from baddies?

i wished i had been born with these qualities
that would be great...
...or maybe i just need a little more confidence?

these arms are not mine!!!!

for all of ya who don't know, the NCC sec 4s of 2006 who are taking nyaa gold are going to m'sia at the end of the year. the component which we will be doing is some venture thing; spending 4days 3 nights in a remote area. and so, before the actual trip, a recce has to be done. that was we did today, me, kayhowe and jinghui. all of us got sunburnt pretty badly except kayhowe that black piece of shit, hahahahaha! anyway, i wearing a sleeveless shirt, so only my arms got burnt, they're now in a different colour from my torso, infact they don't look like mine at all, they looked screwed up, hahahaha! we took the main road, the road is super screwed up, u cannot count the number of slopes, i think there must be one every kilometre. cycle until want to die, butt super pain. from the jetty, we actually have to take a cab to sungei rengit in order to rent bikes, the cab driver was super friendly, we took the same cab back in afternoon as the one in the morning. on the way we chatted, he said 'yall didn't take the road which went up and down, up and down right? because that one is for cars, there's actually another road is closer to the beach and flatter too.' well, we took the up and down road for cars, shit................... on the boat back, jinghui said 'actually i got sunblock' err.. wtf, then never take out use!!! hahaha!!!! his reason was 'lazy'. hahaa, i'll stop here, today was quite fun, hahaha!

good day!

school starts!

2nd day of school, boring shit, didn't really play alot this holiday compared to past holidays, hahaha, maybe because i worked? not many interesting subjects like FNB this semester, infact, none. hahhaa!

anyway, i was talking to this girl from rj today, knew through another friend who needed my help for her p/w project, not really my help but help from my fellow poly-mates. they were doing a survey. she's really really really smart. well, what can u expect, RJC sia. hahaha! ya know what i'm most afraid talking to people i don't know very well? it's being irritating, i've been called irritated by afew more 'important' people in my life and i didn't like it, it hurt. not saying this rj girl is 'important' to me in that 'you-know' sense, but she seems really really nice. whenever people are nice to me, the more afraid i am to bother them. except for, of course, people i've known for a long long time like kayhowe. but i do feel afraid to bother him at times too. so i think i sorta developed a phobia towards people calling me irritating. so to anyone who's read this, please please please don say i'm irritating, use some other word, like errr............. errr..... i dunno, just to make it sound nicer. but i do try not be irritating, i really don't know when i'm bothering someone or not so sometimes i end a conversation early. please don't blame me.

here! one of my fears, hahaha!

good day!

i'm back! that means i have time to blog! i have time that means its holiday!!!!

its holiday!!! finally!!! no more exams! no more projects!!! bwhahahaha! lets see. what have i done do far.... 1H07 went to marina bay to have dinner, after that i went to drink with JP. errr... went back to AHS for teachers' day, saw many many friends. err.. got back my electric guitar from kavin, wtf,finally after draggin for so long, i think since i got my electric, most of the time, it's been with him sia... hahaha! from now on i am determined to not lend him anymore!! i've done little stuff since the holiday started sia... ok, this is only the beginning of the 5th day of my holiday, hahahaha! i still got lotsa time to do stuff, but i'm going to look for a job soon then work work work for my new guitar! cheong! oh ya, and the cheong then i use, traditionally in 4B06, the word is pronounced with emphasis on the 'ONG', so it goes like 'che-ONG!' yeah man! i miss 4B06! i wish there would be another chalet, but i know that's not very possible, everyone's in JC with lotsa activities coming up, in the holidays also. dammit. hai... maybe i should organise a BBQ instead!, i know, old idea, but its good, last afew hours so that everyone can crap around and take pictures that kinda thing. hahahahaha! have FOOD at the same time! tomorrrow or rather later today, my class is going to dhoby ghaut there to watch ratatouille, but i've watched already, should i go? i think i better not, save money! hahaha! it wouldn't matter whether i'm there or not, so.......... i won't go, hahahaha! unless of course they tell me going to look for job!!

k i'm lazy to post more stuff, good day, until another day!

after 20 over days

after 20+ days i'm back here again, hahaha! alot of stuff has happened these few weeks, like going to Aria, lots of projects! Aria rocked! especially the foie gras, it was super fat, but super good! plus the wine mr sim brought, it was a riesling german wine, sweet! what u would call in dennis-language : good shit! other than the foie gras was the lobster soup, well of course there was no lobster inside but there was a prawn beside the soup bowl. the soup was................... wtf wtf wtf omg omg omg, good shit! and there was the duck confit, the skin was wtf, super crispy! hahaha! very nice! then there was the dessert, the dessert was just ok only lah, but the rest was good shit! hahaa! the most memorable event that night which happened was of course, ryun kiat vomitting, wtf, super scary sia, he was squatting and i was standing infront of him, he said he felt like vomitting, i thought it was just a feeling and he won't vomit. finishing that sentence he turned back and vomitted. hahhaa, we were very near the taxi stand, the taxi stand was full of people then everyone looked at him. after that we tried to flag a cab, walk around, desiree kept calling the cab hotlines, i call 2 times then through loh, bwahahahaa! we strayed away from the esplanade by then, we didn't know how to describe the place so i told the phone operator to direct the cabs to esplanade, then we cheong back to esplanade. Don and ryunkiat were down, we had to drag them back to esplanade, hahaha! i took a cab back with jasmine, albert and mayling. the rest took another cab. it was fun, hahaha!

i guess this is the only signicant event these few weeks other than projects, and i don feel like talking about projects because they suck! hahaha! there's communication skills presentation tomorrow, i'm suppose to decorate the damn powerpoint, damn, i wanna sleep already sia, hahaha, no choice, cheong!!! good day!

long time since i last posted

i'm back again! been real busy with projects that i can't fork out time to write some shit here, so busy that i don even have time to play dota!! hahaha! tomorrow is the deadline for comm skills and i'm rushing out the appendices now, shouldn't take a very long time? cuz i'm super tired man! i'm suppose to reply zhengyi's letter but i've just been really busy, damn, i've been delaying it for a long time already, i should write it once i'm free. really hope our comm skills report will get a good grade, we really put lots of effort into it! me, albert, esther, ziya, peiwen and melissa png! hahaha, they've been a nice buncha people to work with.
haha, i will try to post more stuff, good day!

anyway, see the picture? top: ziya peiwen and albert
bottom: melissa png, esther and dennis


GOOD DAY

dota is bad for anger management, especially if u suck at it

for those who do not know what is dota, it means 'defence of the ancients', it was created by a person known by 'icefrog' for a game called warcraft 3: frozen throne. there are 3 lanes with attacking towers of each side lined along them and waves of monsters a.k.a creeps are spawned regularly. each player is suppose to choose a 'hero' out of 82 of them, each hero has different skills and capabilities. they are more or less balanced out as much as possible. by the way, there're only 2 sides, the undead and the sentinel in the game, u are suppose to control ur hero to kills the creeps or the opponent's hero. however the main objective of the game is still to push down the primary structure of the enemy and that concludes the game. in the game u need to land the last hit on the creeps before they die so that u can get money to get items. items are a essential part of the game for they can greatly affect the performance of the hero.

now that u know what dota is, why is it bad for anger management? easy! because it makes u horribly angry when u lose! especially when u see the opponent's hero spamming their skills at u and can't do anything about it, then u die. i've seen alot of people getting pissed off at losing, including me, haahaha! i know its bad to vent anger at people because of a damn game and i realise its wrong at the moment of time, but it really comes uncontrollably and i end up being super grumpy. ur damn pissed off, but u don't know who or what to get pissed off at, u end up making the people around u angry as well. it seriously ain't worth. that's y now i try to avoid fighting against friends in dota, instead, we collaborate to fight bots a.k.a the computer. not as interesting as fighting real players but well.. at least u won't get angry for losing.

ending here, good day

pictures!

the mid sem tests are over! ncc chalet also over!

mid sem tests finally over, i guess its a little too late to say that, it ended a week ago, shit, that means i only have to 1 week more to relax, damn, time flies. soon, school'll be starting again. i've been at ncc chalet the past few days from monday to wednesday. it was fun. tuesday was alan's birthday, and he damn got a hell of a celebration with ice cubes in his underwear and under his shirt. i noticed there were a lot of pretty girls at downtown east. shit, well, i am a guy. and normal guys will look at girls. i don't know whats wrong with me nowadays, i didn't used to look at girls so much. i guess its because i used to have someone to think of. the change is so dramatic that even i can feel it. damn, i'm screwed up, i must fix myself man. at the chalet we spent most of the time in the small little playing dota, i know its not something we should be doing at a chalet, but well, we enjoy dota. hahaha! but its just too bad many of the ncc peeps couldn't make it.

lets talk about today! i woke up in the afternoon, i went to TP with kayhowe. he needed to go school because his MC was rejected. he missed 2 tests because he was damn sick. and if tests were concerned, MCs needed to state that the person was unfit for the test, otherwise, rejected. after that i made my way to ang mo kio hub to meet albert, go night safari to do the field trip for the intro to hospitality and tourism. we were doing on the ulu ulu restaurant at the entrance of the night safari. it was before entering the night safari so we need not pay the admission fee. the buffet is $35++ but added up to about $41 per person in the end. expensive........... i would never spend so much on a meal but no choice, have to pose as a customer. in the end the buffet was only... okay... not impressive at all to me. the service was above average. service crew was friendly. very very nice dining environment. and i noticed something, when we were dining in, there were also japanese tourists. the amount of food they took was very little. there was this lady who took only sushi. but hell i tasted the sushi and they were bloody disappointing. i bet she was disappointed too.the sushis were very small with meagre ingredients like cucumbers and hams.............. wth..... there was also cured fish, wtf? i thought they were sashimi and was damn happy. TMD, it was bloody salty, i eat abit i sian and put it aside. the food i tasted there, i could have gotten them better at hawker centres and cheaper. i believe that is not the best Singapore can offer in terms of food. i tell u, with that 41 dollars i could have gone to Sakura for buffet dinner and have about 15 dollars left. though sakura does not have the kind of atmosphere that ulu ulu restaurant offers, but i believe it offers much more high quality food. here we are trying to promote Singapore as a food paradise yet we are offering such food at a tourism attraction. i really feel bad for the tourists, it seems to me that they are being exploited. the only thing about the restaurant which left an impression on me was the layout and atmosphere of the restaurant. it was very tribal style with wood all over. the wooden tables looked very clean, serviettes used were of quality. so good that they felt like cloth. the layout on the tables were very very neat. everything was clean and pleasant even for the toilets, i took afew pictures, i will post them.

dining experience - very very nice, unique atmosphere. a pro of its category.
food - too too too normal, does not leave an impression on its patrons

hahaha, i'm a evil critic!! hahaha! good day!

good day

choosing to blog at the wrong times

its kinda late right now and tomorrow is the final mid semester test, fundamentals of food and beverage. i have a hell lotta stuff to study. i have about 5 or 6 lectures to study and i'm not even half through, look at the time man. hahaha, but i'm here blogging, damn. i'm mad. hope hope hope the fnb test wouldbe easy!! lets see, i still have the stupid oil lecture, the meat lecture, the seafood lecture and the food preservation lecture and the damn stupid different cuts of the damn cow and pig. shit.... i should stop complaining now and get to work!! cheong! good day!

mid semester tests are coming!

i shouldn't say mid sem tests are coming! i should say... THEY HERE!!!! they start on monday!!! after this post i'm gonna go study macro econs!!! BECAUSE ITS MACROECONS TEST ON MONDAY!! shit, i cannot fail! D.W.M CHEONG! i was super slack today, i slept till 12pm, woke up to have my breakfast then i went back to sleep. i woke up again at about 3.30pm to have lunch............ super lazy man. i finished up studying RHT. can't say i'm very sure about the subject but... well, i'll read again one day before the RHT test, hahaha! i was suppose to start on econs after finishing RHT but kayhowe suddenly asked me on msn whether want to play dota. play play play till just now, hahaha! ok, time to start on econs!! CHEONG!!! GOOD DAY!

AN UNBELIEVABLE COINCIDENCE!

today was school, had macro econs in the morning at 9am, that mr gary guy's lesson super interesting and his ability to impart knowledge is good. hahaha, probably the best tutor, i've had met so far. then it was fnb tutorial at 11am after macro econs. mr sim asked me some questions about my last assignment, of course i wouldn't be able to remember very clearly what i had done. just because i could not remember the details of what was in my powerpoint slide doesn't give him the right to suspect that the work wasn't done by me. i was bloody angry when he said 'i hope the work was done by u.' wtf? i do until so late then u suspect its not my work?! dammit, anyway, forget about that, i'm here to talk about the 'coincidence of the year'.

during fnb lesson we were supposed to exchanged papers and mark each others' papers. i didn't study, luckily i passed. but for the girl, emily whom i marked for, she didn't, i felt bad, but well, there was nothing i could do. her admin no. was 06... something something, so i guess she's probably from year 2 repeating fnb or something. after RHT which ended at 6pm, i went to library to look for kayhowe, he wanted to get a bag for his laptop. he wanted to go to queensway shopping centre to look for his nike hoops messenger bag. he was damned obsessed about it. it was a laptop bag and had a lock?? i admit it, it looked nice. but these sorta things come with a horrible price tag. it costs almost a hundred. well. to me its expensive, to some of y'all it may not be. hahaha! we combed the whole queensway shopping but couldn't find it. anyway, he learnt about it from seiyu at bugis, then one day he went back then the bag gone le. then he was saying how he regret not buying the other day. after queensway, we took bus 197 to bugis. we were sitting at the back of the bus. nearing bugis, the bus stopped, i leaned forward and looked out of the window to my left. p.s i was not beside the window, i was in the middle of width of the bus. then i saw a figure really familiar, exactly what emily was wearing in the afternoon. i couldn't make out the face, but i could roughly see the hair and clothes she was wearing. this was already a coincidence. then she actually looked in and saw me as well. hahaha! then we looked at each other and froze for awhile, then she waved and i waved back. then the bus started moving again. hahaha, this is a coincidence right? all the, bus gang gang hao stop where we could see each other and we did. well, i think it is, hahaha! interesting..... i'm gonna stop here now loh, good day!

feeling bored

My lecture is suppose to start at 2pm but i'm already in school to do my fnb assignment, felt bored so came here to write alittle bit of stuff, hahaha. and YES! this will be the last fnb assignment!! muahahahaha!!! no more looking for dishes!! this week we're suppose to look for ten indian vegetarian dishes. hmmm... not too difficult i guess, but it really takes up alot of time. i'm sitting at my usual place at lvl 6 of the library, super quiet, very little people, thats y i like to come here in the morning. very nice environment to study. however its a very nice place to sleep as well. hahahaha! i'm going to end here and continue my fnb. good day

communication skills test on monday!

oh no! oh no! there's a test on monday!!!! i have to research on one of the topics which include single gender relationships, casino, environmental awareness, sports culture and idol mania. i was intending to do single gender relationships because it seemed interesting initially but i thought it was too difficult and decided to change to casinos instead, and i'm researching now!! my eyelids are dropping. last night i went out with a friend, she got kicked out of the house supposedly so she asked me go dhoby ghaut accompany her. nothing much, she was playing audition at the lan shop when i got there. she call another friend come then we go walk around, go esplanade talk talk talk, then they wanted to go marina bay there play arcade, so we went. then around 7am then we go home, i was damn tired, felt like cabbing home, but i realise i shouldn't waste anymore money so take mrt in the end. go home too tired too bathe already, jumped onto my bed and sleep till 2pm when i bathed and made my way to liptat's house to discuss NYAA skills development stuff. they decided to do plastic modelling, gundam building etc. after that we went kfc to eat. i solo-ed buddy meal! haha! i feel damn guilty now, i'm going to get damn fat if i keep eating like that all the time. i must make myself save money and eat less, i'm going to bring less money to school everyday, i'm going to leave my atm card at home!! no more wasting money! no more eating alot!! argh! so after kfc we made our way home. take 158 to aljunied then mrt. then alan, kayhowe and i walked home. saw dianzhuang my pri school friend on the way back. haha, he's still the same crapper i know 5 years ago. hahaha! we talked for damn long, mostly crap. hahaha! i think i'll do my research for the stupid test tomorrow, i'm damn stressed about the plagiarising, i'm afraid that i'll plagiarise unknowingly then fail the test, damn. anyway, we're suppose to do a expository i.e something like an argumentative and state all the sources we used in our essay. if never state, means plagiarism and will fail, damn! so ma fan sia. hai... tomorrrow then research lah, tired loh, going to sleep now, good day!

yue liang dai biao wo de xin

haha! u must be wondering why the title of this post is 'yue liang dai biao wo de xin'? cuz its the song of the day! haha! today i had macro econs lecture at 2pm and intro to hospitality and tourism at 4pm. during econs lecture, don't know how, the boys started singing classics and it all started with yue liang dai biao wo de xin. then rong shu xia, then cha shao bao. we were dismissed 30 mins before 4pm, they take my laptop and started downloading these songs, haha, quite crazy, but well.. quite fun lah. hahaha! then there was intro H&T tutorial, basically the whole lesson was about the field trip and group project and problem-based learning stuff. 6pm we were dismissed, albert and i went to TM to get some stuff. i needed to get a belt and he, printer ink. haha, if yall dunno, i was wearing a pair of jeans with a waist line of 42 inch, damn damn loose. i think if i took off my belt it'll literally drop. anyway, i need a new belt because the holes in the old belt gonna 'break' already.

its gonna be friday again, friday is the day 1H07 hands in their FNB assignments and thats screwed up. i hate the FNB assignments. every week u have to find 10 dishes fitting certain criteria. the first week one was preserved foods, second was game meats and this week, seafood from northern, eastern and western China. i'm only on my third dish after working for 3hours in school today. i went school at 10.30am today, haha, going school early is GOOD! hahaha, tp's library lvl 6 is really a nice place to be, i go my usual place everytime i'm alone there. hahaha! well i'll end right here. good day.

good class!

first post since i got into temasek poly. so far the first week has been great, really nice people in my class, 1H07. very enthusiastic class. muahahahaha, lazy to post anymore, good day

my next direction...

when i lost u, i felt there was nothing in my life to look forward, but hell, u won't control my life, because ur not dammit worth it. u used to worth everything to me, but no, ur nothing now. bloody nothing to me. i will look for my next direction in life, i will not stray for long. i still got great friends with me, friends who will not betray me. to everyone who care to read what i've got to say, thank you very much, ur a friend.

well it ended.

my long wait was finally over. time to move on. that night we thrashed things out. i really learned alot. surprising how i had wasted so much time and effort on u when really, u weren't even sure whether u liked me. whats done's done, time wasted is time wasted. i really hope this doesn't happen to me again cuz its really heartbreaking. but i can't believe u said it had always been one-sided. what were those words u said before? were they just lies? hai... i don't understand, just because it was difficult for u to tell me to stop waiting, i am suppose to play the fool...? my worst fears had come true, i had always had the feeling that u didn't really love me. u said it was impossible for us because we were 2 different people, but isn't the beauty of love is that it brings 2 different individuals together..? of course it was impossible, u never was sure whether u liked me. of course one-sideness is impossible. whats even more hurting that u seemed indifferent about it and treated like everything was normal.... its not normal, not for me. u said u've experienced it before, so y must u do this to me? y must u tell me the truth only when i asked? if i never asked, were u going to pretend that i never existed? well... everything's normal to u, hope ur happy with him. well it ended. it should've ended a long time ago.

if anyone's wondering...

if anyone's wondering why i'm not at CLT course right now, well.. i got kicked out on the second morning which was 3 of april, quite screwed when i spent so much money buying the white shirts and dark shorts and other stuff needed for the camp. the people in charged of the camp are quite fucked up anyway. i got kicked out cuz i failed their napfa test. actually quite screw up. i went for the zhiyong's farewell on 5 of april, maybe getting kicked out of the camp wasn't that bad after all. it was quite a success, except for some misunderstandings between the organisers and the sec 4s. zhiyong didn't learn that he had a farewell until we wanted him to. it was a very busy day. been really lazy to update recently. hahaha. good day...

tomorrow's affirmation ceremony!

hahaha, i dunno y i want to go the affirmation ceremony. i just want to go back. maybe its because i want to go back to anglican high. i find out i love anglican high now even more than i did before when i was still studying there. i want to study in ahs again!!! damn... secondary school life rocks, i think i'm going to hate poly life. so i want to go back ahs as often as possible. this is one of the main reasons i decided to be a CLT. another main reason is of course because of ncc lah! hahaha! today me and kayhowe suppose to meet at 9am. i woke up at 8.30am, bathed and all. i smsed him at 9am whether he was coming my house yet. he said he was coming. i told him to come my house when he was done. haha, i went back to sleep while waiting. i sleep until 11am. then i smsed him again. he said he went to sleep then just woke up only, hahahaha! well.. it was a good thing, i got to sleep alittle bit more! on the way to my house he bought sugarcane juice and nasi lemak from the market. actually the nasi lemak not bad, especially the chicken wing. we went to bugis to shop for clothes. in the end he got a gift and i got a card... no clothes. hahahaa, then we went back to bedok in the evening. i had chicken rice for dinner. i go home then kayhowe went SOMEWHERE ELSE, DO OTHER STUFF. hahahaha! at night went tampines continue present shopping, only me, but he came with me. couldn't find anything good. then we go kfc eat. shit i eat so much i'm getting fat. damn. CLT course is coming!!!!! starts on monday!!!!!! CHEONG!

i'm back again

just came back from supper with kayhowe, haha, i know i shouldn't go for suppers. but well.. i couldn't resist the temptation, hahaha! and it was quite heavy somemore. i had chicken chop and kayhowe had chicken cutlet. then we had a bowl of 3 dollars bar chor mee each. we did this the other day too. exact same food somemore, hahaha! today i went to national library with ngia fung and alvin. ngiafung wanted to research on his project work. alvin went there to do his chemistry homework. and me? i was there to slack. hahaha! after that go bugis walk around then go old chang kee buy squids!!! hahaha! after that nf go back to work at his parents' stall, i go with alvin to collect guitar from his friend. then go home. this is my boring life, good day

no.1, no.3 and no.4!!!

today went out with boju to help him decide on which laptop to buy, so went to ngee ann poly at clementi. we went to dover then change to bus 74 to go ngee ann poly. haha, he could've just put SP which is just beside the dover mrt station but he didn't......... he's gonna have a hard time these 3 years, travelling between east and west everyday. ke lian. in the end he got a lenovo thinkpad t60 which costs 2.4k, half the while he was worrying about the laptop being unable to go into his bag................ then he went for his colour vision test as required by his course 'aerospace technology'

after his test we left the place and took 154 outside ngee ann poly to clementi to have lunch. i ate fish and chips. 6 dollars but not worth the money at all. the food is just..... too ordinary. tooooooooooooooooooooo ordinary that it sucks. eat already we took mrt to yio chu kang to collect uniforms. i'm going for CLT course. to everyone who's reading this, don tell anyone i'm going CLT course! like that then got the element of surprise. haha, its a residential course so yall probably won't be able to contact me from 2 april to 14 april. however i'll be able to book out on the weekend. i'll be contactable then. i think. lucky we went yesterday and not today. later today have to back yio chu kang for the CLT course briefing. so i bet alot of them will be collecting uniforms today too. they're gonna regret it cuz its gonna take alot of time. 2 sets of no.4 including boots, beret, jockey cap, socks, gutters. 1 set of no. 3 with boots and socks and belt. 1 set of no.1 with the buttons and stuff and the head gear. the no.1 is on loan but the rest is FREE! hahaha! as u can expect, its alot of stuff, so we took a cab back home, 14 dollars sia. go home damn tired, i eat dinner i go sleep then i wake up now. sian, donthink i can get back to sleep already loh. hahaha, i go eat 'mr potato' chips! hahaha! good day

never fell in love with someone so deeply before, never fell so hard before

went out

yesteday went out with george to bugis. he said the cinema seats there were comfortable and lots of leg space, so he wanted to go there to watch a movie... wth... hahaha! we watched the messenger. ghost show. about some psychotic father who killed his whole family in the house. then years later another family moved in. then the dead people start 'warning' the new family about the father who came to work at their farm. standard story, the daughter tell the parents, parents never believe and stuff. the seats also not as good as george described it lah. the one we were allocated faulty one then we changed seats. go out with george surely won't do anything much one, haha, always is watch movie then he'll say go home. he'll probably go home and sleep. hahaha! now's after twelve already, today going gym with george. he suddenly wanna go, hhaa, weird. well i think i better go sleep already, goodnight, good day.


i want to talk to you but i don want to talk to you, i have nothing to say to you, but i have alot of things to ask you

i want to be free of you

am i holding false hopes...? how i long for you, how i long to be free of you, doesn't that sound contradicting..? it is. i am sad, i am hurt. how i can be nothing more than an ordinary friend to you? sad but true. i know these chains were bounded by no one but myself, they should never have been made, now i have to break free of them myself. these chains are thick and heavy, with every second they stay bounded, i am crushed onto the ground. strangely, it only hurts beneath my chest. only i have have the power to break free, but i am hesitating.... i hate this pain, i want to be free. i'm locked and stuck.... for the moment.

back again

DAMN, my pay haven come. DAMN. the agency there screw up. called and said earliest i will get the money will be on monday and latest on wednesday. sian ah, by then the IT show over already. i want a laptop! haha, don think my pay would be enough to pay for it, but i just want a laptop. damn. no money. shit. i'm still jobless... shit. slack damn long loh. hahaha! anyway, for those who don't know, i've been posted to temasek poly, taking hospitality and tourism management. i can't wait for school to start, i'm damn bored at home sia. don't think anybody wants to employ someone who's about to start school soon. end here, good day

i'm slack

been slacking for the past 1 week plus since my journey as promoter of yeo hiap seng drinks ended. my mother is pressing me to look for another job again, damn... so i'm meeting george tomorrow at bedok interchange to look for a job together. hope by tomorrow can find. if not my parents will keep bugging me. hahaha. then i'll be busy again, i really hope to be busy. very busy so that i won't have to time to do anything else like maping. recently i've been mapling alot. my schedule has been completely changed. i sleep in the afternoon, evening cheong maple until 3am. yesterday cheong till 4am. then go to sleep till noon. play play play. then sleep, at night play maple again. my whole day revolves around the computer. i know its not good, i really should get a job. i found a factory job in the classifieds. all 12 hour block. either 8am to 8pm or 8pm to 8am. that'll ought to keep me busy. well, tomorrow then say lah.

my pay will come on march 7, and results of postings will be released on 6 march. i heard the 'hospitality and tourism management' will require an interview sia. shit, i hate interviews. shit. damn. ok i'll end right here, good day

no time no time

haha, haven been updating recently cuz of working, recently keep doing 12 hours a day, damn tired, but soon will end loh. this friday is the last day. today whole day headache, but still gotta carry stuff, better go off soon andrest, don wanna have another headache tomorrow. anyway, Os results were really better than what i expected, i expected to fail my geog but i got a b3. tyco sia. L1R5 14, L1R4 11. i still thinking whether to go poly or jc........ hai... tomorrow morning meet george online to discuss then submit the application. hai... good day

eight to eight is tiring

today goods came 2 times. once in the morning and once in the afternoon. morning one was ok cuz got alot people do. william, the head, stanley the assistant, another guy from eastpoint and me. after unloading arranging the stuff they left to go other outlets. the 2nd stock taking one was damn tiring sia... i was alone at the ntuc outlet at that time, alone i pulled the pellet on which were the goods, using a jack. that was what they called it, a 'jack' . it was the first time i was using it, somemore alone. the thing is damn heavy, go over ur toes surely break. i heard it happened once before from william. i spent a hell lotta time on the first pellet of goods. they came back while i was doing the 2nd pellet. heng ah, if not i think i die there. after finish the 2nd one, they left again dunno go where then i replenish stocks and left at eight. 12 hours actually quite tiring, good day

work work work

recently have been all just work work work, yesterday which is about half an hour ago, i work from nine in the morning to nine at night. damn tiring sia. hahaha! but i'm still online! probably gonna sleep soon already. later i work at 8am............. sian, then dunno have to work until what time. heng tuesday off ah, if not really can die sia.... tomorrow will be george's off day. we work at the same outlet, bedok interchange ntuc. we take turns to rest because everyday must have at least one person at the outlet. normal working time is usually 10am to 6pm or 1pm to 9pm. i have to work early tomorrow because the stupid goods coming early in the morning. hope i don have to work until nine at night sia. my job is basically to promote yeo's drinks and replenish stocks. both inside the ntuc and outside at the tentage where the cny goods are kept. superiors are friendly. this job actually not bad. got people to talk to also. there's the carlsberg guy and the allswell girl. i only know the allswell girl's name though. her name is aiping. she's damn slack, then talk to customers sian sian one. i've actually done alot of stuff thats outta my job scope, i'm suppose to be a 'station boy', yet i go join the set up crew quite afew times to set up station at ntuc tentages. well. not bad lah, more pay! can't wait for cny to be over then i will get hongbao money and my pay! and dunno the seoul garden pay go inside my account already or not, must go check, hope will amount to a thousand, if not this holiday quite wasted sia... haha, i'll end now, good day!

jobby

hi people, i'm back again, today's the 22th, i've officially slacked for 3 full weeks+ 1 day. everyday my father comes home from work the first thing he'll ask is 'found a job yet?' or if he reaches home first and sees me opening the door, he'll say 'go work is it?' well, of course i answer no. i guess its really time to look for another job and make money! i'm waiting for the rest of my seoul garden pay, probably be about 200 i suppose? my account only left 10 dollars only!!! i have make it increase to 1000 by the end of this holiday if not this holiday is completely wasted. CHEONG WORK! tomorrow i'm meeting george at mac at 10.30am armed with newpapers to find job. MUST GET A JOB TOMORROW! as each day passes, the closer we edge towards judgement day. RESULT DAY! so fast sia... SHIT. like i said before, if i can't get to tpjc, i'm going to temasek poly loh. i have a feeling i'm going to hate jc life sia, hahaha! i'll just take one step at a time.... wish me luck in finding a job tomorrow! good day

chalet is over... and i'm broke

the chalet was quite disappointing actually, there were people who said they would come but didn't turn up in the end. the first day of chalet was on 11th of january, last thursday. only me, george, jarred and roy stayed that night. did lots of preparation, marinating the chicken wings and stuff. realised i forgot to bring the marinating sauces. heng kayhowe help me bring the stuff over from my house. i tell ya, if kayhowe wasn't there to help me, this chalet would not have been possible. buy stuff, carry stuff. there was a hell lotta stuff to carry. george bring DVDs to watch. friday come, roy and jarred go home, forgot what they said they wanted to do. jarred came back in the evening but roy didn't. the bbq was ruined because of the damn rain, yingqi and clement came in the evening too. ying qi helped with the starting of the fire while clement watched TV. hahaha! oh ya, and i cooked curry chicken!! muahahahaha, though i didn't really make the curry, is use the paste cook one. but the chicken is i chop one and i'm damn proud of it! fried rice is george cook one, honestly, the fried rice quite nice sia. because of the stupid rain we used aluminium trays too cook. we need an elevated platform to place the aluminium trays on so we used the foldable table. in the end, we burnt it quite badly. u should have seen, the whole chalet was damn smokey. at night more people came, including mrs ganesan who came with a box of pies!! we watched DVDs till quite late, we watched a show called 'imprint'. i tell ya, once u watch that show, u'd think saw 2 is nothing compared to it, that show left a deep impression on all of us, hahaha! next day, saturday i forgot do what already, i only remembered go the beach near the chalet then they go play sand, on top is a picture of the people who were there. haha, yanyan and cindy gave me a birthday present! a float that i can only fit my head, a nice pair of slippers and a shirt which says 'i don't have an attitude, i just think i'm always right'. oh ya! did i say shitat's birthday was on friday, evelyn's birthday was on saturday i think. jiemin jiaxiang they all got a cake for us. us because they didn't forget about me!!! the cake said 'happy birthday dennis shitat evelyn' its been such a long time since i had a birthday cake. so long since it was celebrated. thank you people! i really appreciate it! saturday not many people stayed, lets see.... what did we do on sunday...... we went kbox. of course, i didn't touch the mic much because most of them were chinese songs and i never listen. and the english songs ones, the music videos like dunno what sia. don wanna describe.... there was honghong, me, george, shitat, junyuan and christopher in the the 'box'. hong hong and me left early back to the chalet cuz he wanted to get some stuff then go home. after he left i waited at the bus stop for the rest to come back. shitat, junyuan, ivan(came after they finished singing at kbox) and christtopher came back. pack the chalet awhile then they say want go OCH. ji dan, i lazy describe what happen lah. and nope, we didn't meet any funny funny stuff. go back chalet sleep, christopher left after a while cuz he gotta go school, ivan and junyuan left quite late i heard from shitat, hahaha! i was sleeping then. morning pack and checked out. lots of stuff to pay for, had to fork out money to pay my mother. super broke already. today went play pool and eat sakura at parkway. oh no, i spent money!!!!!! shit, must save save save, damn! haiya i end now loh, good day

hey

sorry i didn't update on my birthday as i said i would, but there really was nothing on that day worth blogging about, so good day. today i went to Singapore Poly openhouse, its located at dover, don really like the place though i have no idea why, i just don like it. anyway, nothing much to blog today too, good day

end of seoul garden for me

my last day at seoul garden was yesterday 31december 2006. i worked the whole day until night and did countdown alone on the bus. kayhowe smsed me ask me go out to eat supper but too tired, no mood to go out and not hungry also so i rejected him. go home bathe, used the com awhile then went to sleep. then today i went out with kayhowe to ikea, actually its quite an interesting place sia. we had lunch there, quite crowded. took quite awhile before we found seat. i waited at the seat awhile kayhowe went to get the food, muahahahaha, i feel like i'm bullying him sia.... eat already go walk around the place. at around 2.40pm we left the building. then got ice cream! we go buy. just started eating then suddenly we saw the shuttle bus come, we cheong the ice cream. i finish damn fast then kayhowe still got alot, he quickly asked me to help him finish, but couldn't fniish fast enough, the bus driver saw us then gestured to us to wait for the next bus. but we stubborn. i quickly finish the stupid ice cream then we chase the bus. the shuttle bus goes from tampines mrt to ikea then to courts megastore then back to tampines mrt. we chase the bus around ikea then towards courts megastore. i finished the ice cream while running. when the bus driver saw us he damn stun sia. so we boarded the bus at courts megastore. actually we could have ran straight to the courts megastore but we go and follow the bus route, turn around ikea then go courts megastore. damn stupid sia. hahaha! it'll be my birthday in about half an hour. but it doesn't seem very special to me, it'll be just like any other, i will blog about it tomorrow, till then, good day