well it ended.

my long wait was finally over. time to move on. that night we thrashed things out. i really learned alot. surprising how i had wasted so much time and effort on u when really, u weren't even sure whether u liked me. whats done's done, time wasted is time wasted. i really hope this doesn't happen to me again cuz its really heartbreaking. but i can't believe u said it had always been one-sided. what were those words u said before? were they just lies? hai... i don't understand, just because it was difficult for u to tell me to stop waiting, i am suppose to play the fool...? my worst fears had come true, i had always had the feeling that u didn't really love me. u said it was impossible for us because we were 2 different people, but isn't the beauty of love is that it brings 2 different individuals together..? of course it was impossible, u never was sure whether u liked me. of course one-sideness is impossible. whats even more hurting that u seemed indifferent about it and treated like everything was normal.... its not normal, not for me. u said u've experienced it before, so y must u do this to me? y must u tell me the truth only when i asked? if i never asked, were u going to pretend that i never existed? well... everything's normal to u, hope ur happy with him. well it ended. it should've ended a long time ago.