Sunday, August 31, 2008
nike human run
it's time to find a job soon, probably i'll just rest for one more week. hahaha! maybe. i'll see. it's time to pay my mother for the chalet too. i'll do it later. then the rest of the uncollected money will go back in my deprived bank account.
Friday, August 29, 2008
perhaps
disappears into a space invisible
such a quiet ending for a glorious entry
with no trace of where you landed....
how will i find you....
perhaps......
if i wait long enough...
you'll show yourself again....
holidays
the rest of the day wasn't great either. i think i pissed someone off. maybe i'm being oversensitive but.... i'm really sorry if i made anyone unhappy. i was suppose to go steamboat with 1h07 today but i really wasn't hungry because i had eaten a very heavy lunch after the paper. asking me to go eat steamboat would really be a waste of money because i really could not contain anymore food. i didn't have anything for dinner either, except if you consider a carton of milk dinner. i was in the mood for something to make me drowsy alittle but i stopped infront of the fridge at 7 eleven and thought for a moment, i decided to settle for milk instead since i've been drinking recently.
i went to buy guitar strings then went to join the rest at the steamboat restaurant at bugis. i couldn't get my strings because all the places i went, they were closed by the time i reached there. i walked for very long time, from the aljunied mrt station to the warehouse and back. i went to city hall to peninsula plaza but all the shops were already closed by then. i walked to esplanade for hope of finding the maestro@esplanade shop open but it was closed, so i took a bus to bugis from the bus stop infront of esplanade and join the rest. i lost my way, i forgot how to get to the steamboat restaurant. walked for quite awhile before i realised i was walking in the wrong area of bugis and i should've gone the opposite direction. it felt great; walking around alone. it really felt good at that moment. tried clearing out some complications in my head but to avail. but its okay, at least i wasted afew hours. perhaps another reason i didn't want to join them was because i wanted to be left alone for awhile and i know it would surely be lively and cheery around the 1h07 gang and i would definitely be the quietest and i don't want to be the only one being screwed up and all. after joining them, as expected, i couldn't fuse myself into their conversations. i was too tired i guess. hahaha.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Glory of Love
Tonight it's very clear
Cause we're both lying here
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I will never leave you alone
Sometimes I just forget, say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't want to lose you
I could never make it alone
I am a man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone
I am a man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
It's like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away
I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
We live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love...
is there really glory in love? ha.............
nice song nonetheless.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
what a dream..... in your dreams dennis!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
late... in the morning?
i keep burping and i can't get the feeling of the burger out of me.....
unspeakable
Saturday, August 23, 2008
botak jones
is it suppose to be like that? no idea. but i would've rather ate a couple of double cheese burgers from mac. hahaha! seriously. cheaper and won't make you wanna vomit. maybe it's just me. hhahaha!
Friday, August 22, 2008
sarah's birthday today!
CUTE RIGHT?!! HAHAHA!
i went to sunset bar at aranda country club for awhile, sat there with bert. we stayed only the length of 3 songs? which is about... 15 mins. he needed to leave early. i really really really wished i could stay, i didn't feel like going home. but i didn't want to be there alone. in the end, left. we finished just a jug of tiger. half each. it wasn't enough. i bought 2 tall cans from 7 eleven on the way home, they're lying in my fridge chilling. they'll be emptied and thrown in the rubbish chute later so no one would know! hahaha!
beer tastes damn good.
good day.
even the smiley icons make me happy, hahaha!
be glad there were ever such times.
be glad you were once in a little teeny weeny part of her life.
be glad to know there're still people out there who can make you fall head over heels in love.
be glad to know you can still love and there's a jungle out there if not this tree.
be glad you're alive to experience those wonderful moments which have yet to come.
be glad you did what you ever did to be who you are today.
be glad you know of the great people who surround you who shower you with love and affection.
be glad you have no worries about food and water.
be glad you were given a chance to type on this keyboard you're touching.
be glad if ever you felt pain, it's nature's way of letting you know you're alive.
be glad if you ever felt heartbrokened, because you learn.
be very glad.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
the bert.
can't believe i forgot to post this. the guy who braved thick and thin with me through this 1 and half year, thanks for being a great friend for half of my poly life. i'm glad we ended in the same class after year 1. otherwise i wouldn't have known how to spend these few months. sadly,we won't be in the next class next semester. hope ya get along with ya class. and dammit, we are still buddies! no matter what y'all speak of him, he's a great friend. thanks bert!
Boston - Augustana
In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,
Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
studying day
my aim is to finish accounting by friday then i can start on TTO during the weekends. i can't wait for friday, sarah's chalet! i'm gonna go chill at the sunset bar at aranda country club for awhile too. been awhile since i went. i miss the quietness and the live music, just sitting and drinking my beer. what a great feeling. sometimes, i really don't like crowds. sometimes being alone really gives me satisfaction. bert says i'm too much of a loner, i don't speak out much. not as in i don't talk much but... u know what i mean? but i think i'm alright, i just tend to be more careful with what i say and don't know what to say thus, i am quiet around strangers. and i have a lower than average EQ, i am aware that i may offend people without knowing it, if i do, please forgive me and tell me what's wrong with me. i really need to learn. i really hope i can handle my relationships with people better. then perhaps they wouldn't be so fragile and shatter upon the slightest conflicts.
it's really hard for me when i can't understand why i went wrong...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
passing by
through a moving transparent pane
wondered where you were going
had a desire to make my presence known
but i dared not.
saw you today.
black top and khaki coloured shorts
waiting for the bus to pick you up
or was it another colour?
i can't remember.
saw you today.
slightly wet hair like you just had a bath
pretty and oblivious
rushing somewhere?
i don't know.
you know.
i always noticed that place
whenever i passed by
i saw you today.
but you didn't see me
Monday, August 18, 2008
woke up
i really hope i don't screw up as much as i did in SSM next sem in culinary science, argh.
overnight k box
we sang from about 12am to 6am in the morning, i reached home about 7.30pm. cheong to bathe. then sleep until super shuang. hahahaa! imma start studying soon. but first i think i'll go continue sleeping awhile more,ahahaha!
sorry if i have ever been a let-down...
Saturday, August 16, 2008
SSM
i still rememeber the last marketing lecture where this big angry man walked in and talked about this subject called service skills methodology. and he made it like the most scary subject in the world. the way he spoke was intimidating coupled with his size... wow... scary... i definitely wasn't looking forward to it.
my journey in ssm was..... screwed up. not the subject. but me. i committed so many redundant mistakes i can't hardly remembered. all thanks to my bad memory and carelessness. i forget too often. as a result i really made quite afew people angry with me. for that i really apologise! and a couple of people who always gave me encouragement when i needed them, you guys and girls know who y'all are. i'll mention afew of the more important people in my journey of ssm. not say the others are not important, these are just more because i worked with them etc. get what i mean? hahaha!
albert: inevitably, ya always know about my day one way or another. sometimes ya sound like you're criticising me but i know ya mean well. hahaha! somehow no matter how bad my day was, we'll laugh about them in the end, thanks dude.
kher meng: dude, u did well as headwaiter and you're a good friend, i know you believe in me but i can't. sorry for the disappointment though.
Yvonne: never fails to perk me up with her encouraging words like errr... a mother... ? a sister..? or a really good friend! hahaha! i appreciate them! THANK YOU!
Miaohong: really really sorry, i know i made ya kinda pissed off at me when ya was my captain. i felt really guilty after operations. you were great, the station would have collapsed totally without you, sorry i wasn't much of a help.
Andrea: former fellow bartender. i'm sorry i didn't help u with the coffee. i really had no idea how to make them. i know i wasn't a big help but i really tried. i think i pissed you off some time during operations, SORRY!!
Mr Goh: he's the most incredible teacher. hahaha! it's self explanatory to those who have been taught by him.
i should have done this earlier but imma blog about my unluckiest day in SSM which was 2nd last week as bartender. i was reminded of it by bert just now when we went sakura to have our dinner. and he was laughing like shit over it. hahaha! what a 幸灾乐祸, hahaha! here goes.....
i was runner together with miaohong but she had to go for her PT 2. just before operations, i was changed to be bartender together with andrea. since there were only 2 allocated runners, i had to do the opening for runner before going off to help bar if not there'll be no one. till after opening runner duties, i was kinda happy because everything went quite smoothly for me.
so i finished opening it early with help with the help from Wina! so... i looked around to try find something to do. ahh...~ then i saw kelson wiping the condiments! so i thought! i can do that! so i got myself a cloth which was too large to stuff into the neck of the bottle so i went to change for another. just when i picked the first bottle with my right hand. (the cloth was in my right hand) calynn exclaimed 'AHH... YOUR CLOTH!!!!!' then the 'piang' the vinegar bottle shattered into pieces with the strong smell vinegar quickly spreading in the air causing everyone to look around to find the source of the choking smell, if not for the sound of shattering glass. i froze, miss mark saw. mr goh wasn't there, i thought it was a relief. we cleared it up rather quickly. but i was feeling really bad already. i don't know what happened to the cloth in my hand, i think i put it back onto the table. hahaha!
so bar started, i didn't get to try making coffee because there was no time, soo... i didn't really know how to make coffee at all. when we were learning mocktails, i felt trickles of water when i shook the concoction beside my face. but i didn't think it was significant so i didn't care about it. ah.... then mr goh came. i remember what he said. he picked up the shaker glass. he showed it to me. 'dennis, why is this glass chipped?' i really didn't know sooo... 'i don't know, mr goh.' 'this glass is made of tempered glass and it takes talent to chip this. and now you tell me you don't know how it happened? are you telling me this glass chipped itself? for that yall will have to work just one shaker!' with his signature tone and slammed the glass onto the metal counter. i was really innocent! i dunno how it happened, but still i bore the blame. hahaha! but in the end he returned with a new glass from the store. whew... if not we would've died.
mr goh helped make coffee during operations. he took a coffee cup and he walked towards me. i knew something was wrong. 'dennis, come, see this.' i looked. it was a chip. 'you want to use this chipped coffee cup to serve my customers?' of course i replied 'no, mr goh'. he brought the coffee cup somewhere else after that i think. i continued washing.i bore the blame again.
in the middle of operations. MR GOH DEMANDED I DO COFFEE!! AAAHHHH. when he said it, i froze totally because i never did it before. so no choice i go try. when i tried to fix the thing with the coffee powder into the coffee machine to make the coffee i didn't fix properly. then the coffee flowed out from all directions. ok.. i'm dead. 'didn't ms mark teach yall to make coffee before operations? go away! he can't make coffee. andrea, take over' so i walked back to wash stuff.
during operations i did a lot of washing. i wash wash wash. then i accidentally dropped one of the stuff onto the wine glass, and you can guess what the hell happened, wine glass BROKE. mr goh was behind me making coffee. i looked back, he didn't know but i know i surely kena more if i don't say. so i gathered up my courage. 'Mr goh, i broke a wine glass.' he gave me the 'sian-already' face. 'you chip my shaker glass, you chip my cup, you can't make coffee and now you broke my wine glass. and before operations you broke something else right? what can you do? tell what me what are you dennis?' (i guess i should've known he would've found out about the vinegar bottle sooner or later) i was damn pissed off at myself that moment. i replied 'useless' then continued doing my work. mr goh replied 'i'm starting to think that, dennis'
some after awhile during operations. he came back and he said. 'dennis, break another wine glass lah, wine glasses should come in pairs, break another one lah, make it 2 lah' at that moment i really didn't want to say anything anymore so i ignored him.
what terrible day of broken glasses. i'm glad ssm is over but somehow i will still miss it.
and i wished i knew why.....