i really hate blogging about my everyday life now, it's just so too damn boring. but i have nothing else to say. alright so today was quite a bad day. i was waiter at top table.i got scolded by mr goh even before operations started. while walking to tca, i hung the apron over my neck without tying it, so walking past the entrance, mr goh saw me then i got scolded.................... then another bad thing which happened today, i served main course to a table which haven't even had their appetiser. malu like shit. i think mr sim wanted to kill me just now. hai.... then just now on the bus, i leaned on the side of the bus. my head knocked against the hammer which is used to break the glass incase of an emergency. then got the 'tee teee tee' sound, i faster put it back, luckily most of the passengers weren't paying attention. nevertheless, it was quite embarrassing.

of course it is honourable fighting for what you want. if you die, you will die a glorified death. but what if you already know the ending to the battle, and you will die. what is the point of dying with a glorified death when you won't live to enjoy it? but of course, if you don't fight you will be regarded as a coward who won't fight for what he/she believes in.

backing out

i choose to back down
because it has never worked
call me a coward
call me unambitious
but i know my limits

your judgement had long been passed
i choose not fight
because it is true
i believe you are right
i believe i am wrong
but i don't want this

i admire your courage
i choose not to question it
because it is what you want
if it makes you happy
if it is fine with you
then i think i'm fine too

i choose to cower
because he is there
i believe he keeps promises
i believe he'll hold your hand
so i'm letting go, backing out
without a fight
no more pressure