changes

i made some changes to my blog; the position of my tagboard and added a video, or rather a song, because its from youtube but shows just 'this is all you see', its 'carry you home' by james blunt. very nice song, it doesn't play by itself when u enter my blog, take some time to listen to it and read the lyrics, i hope u find it as meaningful as i did. enjoy!

i really need time to sort out my feelings, seriously, but i don think i have much time to think.... it probably won't be long till i won't see her again.. or probably, it's just an illusion which i thought to be real, but no.... her beauty is genuine, my feelings seem real, but they're split up and mixed up.
she is a familiar sight with an unfamiliar voice and an unfamiliar touch... it probably wouldn't work out, maybe giving up would be a good decision, i think it is. i'll just let glide and go wherever the wind takes me.

damn projects

too many projects, today went to school at 11.30pm to do BCS project, i was supposed to meet melissa png at 11.30pm, supposed. but of course, girls will be girls, she was late for 30mins then i went to lab first to wait for her. seriously designing websites very sian, hahaha, very troublesome, linking here and linking there. i get totally confused when i see the html code so i'm really afraid to go touch the codes. later edit the stuff then the website screw up then i'll have to start over again, thats not good, not good at all. thats y i always make sure i look at the position of the codes i paste inside properly before i preview the thing, so that i can delete it if it screws up, hahhaa! just to play safe. alot of people were there doing their bcs project too. the lab closed at about 4pm+ i think, then we had to leave, but lucky i was done with the project at that time. its been a really boring day, i went home to sleep after that, then now i'm doing socio ppt, not even one slide is done though i opened powerpoint for almost 2 hours. just talking to a few people online.

i found her blog yesterday. i spent afew hours reading her history, the only story i'm interested in. i feel like a stalker. i bookmarked it, i went in ten times in the last 24 hours though there was no update. maybe i'm waiting for another sneak peak into her life which i will never be a part of. but its nice to have someone to think of again, i don have expectations of love anymore. all i want to do is dwell in the shadows watching her beautiful graceful self as she lives her life unaware of me.

good day

i think imma give up on all this nonsense

its not making any sense for me to continue thinking about it if i'm not going to do anything about it. it's not making any sense for me to type down all my feelings here too.

dilemma

i'm need someone to listen to me, but oh well, nobody cares