good class!

first post since i got into temasek poly. so far the first week has been great, really nice people in my class, 1H07. very enthusiastic class. muahahahaha, lazy to post anymore, good day

my next direction...

when i lost u, i felt there was nothing in my life to look forward, but hell, u won't control my life, because ur not dammit worth it. u used to worth everything to me, but no, ur nothing now. bloody nothing to me. i will look for my next direction in life, i will not stray for long. i still got great friends with me, friends who will not betray me. to everyone who care to read what i've got to say, thank you very much, ur a friend.

well it ended.

my long wait was finally over. time to move on. that night we thrashed things out. i really learned alot. surprising how i had wasted so much time and effort on u when really, u weren't even sure whether u liked me. whats done's done, time wasted is time wasted. i really hope this doesn't happen to me again cuz its really heartbreaking. but i can't believe u said it had always been one-sided. what were those words u said before? were they just lies? hai... i don't understand, just because it was difficult for u to tell me to stop waiting, i am suppose to play the fool...? my worst fears had come true, i had always had the feeling that u didn't really love me. u said it was impossible for us because we were 2 different people, but isn't the beauty of love is that it brings 2 different individuals together..? of course it was impossible, u never was sure whether u liked me. of course one-sideness is impossible. whats even more hurting that u seemed indifferent about it and treated like everything was normal.... its not normal, not for me. u said u've experienced it before, so y must u do this to me? y must u tell me the truth only when i asked? if i never asked, were u going to pretend that i never existed? well... everything's normal to u, hope ur happy with him. well it ended. it should've ended a long time ago.

if anyone's wondering...

if anyone's wondering why i'm not at CLT course right now, well.. i got kicked out on the second morning which was 3 of april, quite screwed when i spent so much money buying the white shirts and dark shorts and other stuff needed for the camp. the people in charged of the camp are quite fucked up anyway. i got kicked out cuz i failed their napfa test. actually quite screw up. i went for the zhiyong's farewell on 5 of april, maybe getting kicked out of the camp wasn't that bad after all. it was quite a success, except for some misunderstandings between the organisers and the sec 4s. zhiyong didn't learn that he had a farewell until we wanted him to. it was a very busy day. been really lazy to update recently. hahaha. good day...