i wish

i wished i had been born with a flair for words
weaving beautiful poems effortless
then maybe u would recognise me?

i wished i had been born more attractive
probably a little more slimmer or handsome
then maybe u would notice me?

i wished i had been born with more courage
like a lion, or of a mouse would be enough
then maybe i could defend u from baddies?

i wished i had been born with these qualities
that would be great...
...or maybe i just need a little more confidence?

these arms are not mine!!!!

for all of ya who don't know, the NCC sec 4s of 2006 who are taking nyaa gold are going to m'sia at the end of the year. the component which we will be doing is some venture thing; spending 4days 3 nights in a remote area. and so, before the actual trip, a recce has to be done. that was we did today, me, kayhowe and jinghui. all of us got sunburnt pretty badly except kayhowe that black piece of shit, hahahahaha! anyway, i wearing a sleeveless shirt, so only my arms got burnt, they're now in a different colour from my torso, infact they don't look like mine at all, they looked screwed up, hahahaha! we took the main road, the road is super screwed up, u cannot count the number of slopes, i think there must be one every kilometre. cycle until want to die, butt super pain. from the jetty, we actually have to take a cab to sungei rengit in order to rent bikes, the cab driver was super friendly, we took the same cab back in afternoon as the one in the morning. on the way we chatted, he said 'yall didn't take the road which went up and down, up and down right? because that one is for cars, there's actually another road is closer to the beach and flatter too.' well, we took the up and down road for cars, shit................... on the boat back, jinghui said 'actually i got sunblock' err.. wtf, then never take out use!!! hahaha!!!! his reason was 'lazy'. hahaa, i'll stop here, today was quite fun, hahaha!

good day!

school starts!

2nd day of school, boring shit, didn't really play alot this holiday compared to past holidays, hahaha, maybe because i worked? not many interesting subjects like FNB this semester, infact, none. hahhaa!

anyway, i was talking to this girl from rj today, knew through another friend who needed my help for her p/w project, not really my help but help from my fellow poly-mates. they were doing a survey. she's really really really smart. well, what can u expect, RJC sia. hahaha! ya know what i'm most afraid talking to people i don't know very well? it's being irritating, i've been called irritated by afew more 'important' people in my life and i didn't like it, it hurt. not saying this rj girl is 'important' to me in that 'you-know' sense, but she seems really really nice. whenever people are nice to me, the more afraid i am to bother them. except for, of course, people i've known for a long long time like kayhowe. but i do feel afraid to bother him at times too. so i think i sorta developed a phobia towards people calling me irritating. so to anyone who's read this, please please please don say i'm irritating, use some other word, like errr............. errr..... i dunno, just to make it sound nicer. but i do try not be irritating, i really don't know when i'm bothering someone or not so sometimes i end a conversation early. please don't blame me.

here! one of my fears, hahaha!

good day!

i'm back! that means i have time to blog! i have time that means its holiday!!!!

its holiday!!! finally!!! no more exams! no more projects!!! bwhahahaha! lets see. what have i done do far.... 1H07 went to marina bay to have dinner, after that i went to drink with JP. errr... went back to AHS for teachers' day, saw many many friends. err.. got back my electric guitar from kavin, wtf,finally after draggin for so long, i think since i got my electric, most of the time, it's been with him sia... hahaha! from now on i am determined to not lend him anymore!! i've done little stuff since the holiday started sia... ok, this is only the beginning of the 5th day of my holiday, hahahaha! i still got lotsa time to do stuff, but i'm going to look for a job soon then work work work for my new guitar! cheong! oh ya, and the cheong then i use, traditionally in 4B06, the word is pronounced with emphasis on the 'ONG', so it goes like 'che-ONG!' yeah man! i miss 4B06! i wish there would be another chalet, but i know that's not very possible, everyone's in JC with lotsa activities coming up, in the holidays also. dammit. hai... maybe i should organise a BBQ instead!, i know, old idea, but its good, last afew hours so that everyone can crap around and take pictures that kinda thing. hahahahaha! have FOOD at the same time! tomorrrow or rather later today, my class is going to dhoby ghaut there to watch ratatouille, but i've watched already, should i go? i think i better not, save money! hahaha! it wouldn't matter whether i'm there or not, so.......... i won't go, hahahaha! unless of course they tell me going to look for job!!

k i'm lazy to post more stuff, good day, until another day!

after 20 over days

after 20+ days i'm back here again, hahaha! alot of stuff has happened these few weeks, like going to Aria, lots of projects! Aria rocked! especially the foie gras, it was super fat, but super good! plus the wine mr sim brought, it was a riesling german wine, sweet! what u would call in dennis-language : good shit! other than the foie gras was the lobster soup, well of course there was no lobster inside but there was a prawn beside the soup bowl. the soup was................... wtf wtf wtf omg omg omg, good shit! and there was the duck confit, the skin was wtf, super crispy! hahaha! very nice! then there was the dessert, the dessert was just ok only lah, but the rest was good shit! hahaa! the most memorable event that night which happened was of course, ryun kiat vomitting, wtf, super scary sia, he was squatting and i was standing infront of him, he said he felt like vomitting, i thought it was just a feeling and he won't vomit. finishing that sentence he turned back and vomitted. hahhaa, we were very near the taxi stand, the taxi stand was full of people then everyone looked at him. after that we tried to flag a cab, walk around, desiree kept calling the cab hotlines, i call 2 times then through loh, bwahahahaa! we strayed away from the esplanade by then, we didn't know how to describe the place so i told the phone operator to direct the cabs to esplanade, then we cheong back to esplanade. Don and ryunkiat were down, we had to drag them back to esplanade, hahaha! i took a cab back with jasmine, albert and mayling. the rest took another cab. it was fun, hahaha!

i guess this is the only signicant event these few weeks other than projects, and i don feel like talking about projects because they suck! hahaha! there's communication skills presentation tomorrow, i'm suppose to decorate the damn powerpoint, damn, i wanna sleep already sia, hahaha, no choice, cheong!!! good day!

long time since i last posted

i'm back again! been real busy with projects that i can't fork out time to write some shit here, so busy that i don even have time to play dota!! hahaha! tomorrow is the deadline for comm skills and i'm rushing out the appendices now, shouldn't take a very long time? cuz i'm super tired man! i'm suppose to reply zhengyi's letter but i've just been really busy, damn, i've been delaying it for a long time already, i should write it once i'm free. really hope our comm skills report will get a good grade, we really put lots of effort into it! me, albert, esther, ziya, peiwen and melissa png! hahaha, they've been a nice buncha people to work with.
haha, i will try to post more stuff, good day!

anyway, see the picture? top: ziya peiwen and albert
bottom: melissa png, esther and dennis


GOOD DAY

dota is bad for anger management, especially if u suck at it

for those who do not know what is dota, it means 'defence of the ancients', it was created by a person known by 'icefrog' for a game called warcraft 3: frozen throne. there are 3 lanes with attacking towers of each side lined along them and waves of monsters a.k.a creeps are spawned regularly. each player is suppose to choose a 'hero' out of 82 of them, each hero has different skills and capabilities. they are more or less balanced out as much as possible. by the way, there're only 2 sides, the undead and the sentinel in the game, u are suppose to control ur hero to kills the creeps or the opponent's hero. however the main objective of the game is still to push down the primary structure of the enemy and that concludes the game. in the game u need to land the last hit on the creeps before they die so that u can get money to get items. items are a essential part of the game for they can greatly affect the performance of the hero.

now that u know what dota is, why is it bad for anger management? easy! because it makes u horribly angry when u lose! especially when u see the opponent's hero spamming their skills at u and can't do anything about it, then u die. i've seen alot of people getting pissed off at losing, including me, haahaha! i know its bad to vent anger at people because of a damn game and i realise its wrong at the moment of time, but it really comes uncontrollably and i end up being super grumpy. ur damn pissed off, but u don't know who or what to get pissed off at, u end up making the people around u angry as well. it seriously ain't worth. that's y now i try to avoid fighting against friends in dota, instead, we collaborate to fight bots a.k.a the computer. not as interesting as fighting real players but well.. at least u won't get angry for losing.

ending here, good day

pictures!

the mid sem tests are over! ncc chalet also over!

mid sem tests finally over, i guess its a little too late to say that, it ended a week ago, shit, that means i only have to 1 week more to relax, damn, time flies. soon, school'll be starting again. i've been at ncc chalet the past few days from monday to wednesday. it was fun. tuesday was alan's birthday, and he damn got a hell of a celebration with ice cubes in his underwear and under his shirt. i noticed there were a lot of pretty girls at downtown east. shit, well, i am a guy. and normal guys will look at girls. i don't know whats wrong with me nowadays, i didn't used to look at girls so much. i guess its because i used to have someone to think of. the change is so dramatic that even i can feel it. damn, i'm screwed up, i must fix myself man. at the chalet we spent most of the time in the small little playing dota, i know its not something we should be doing at a chalet, but well, we enjoy dota. hahaha! but its just too bad many of the ncc peeps couldn't make it.

lets talk about today! i woke up in the afternoon, i went to TP with kayhowe. he needed to go school because his MC was rejected. he missed 2 tests because he was damn sick. and if tests were concerned, MCs needed to state that the person was unfit for the test, otherwise, rejected. after that i made my way to ang mo kio hub to meet albert, go night safari to do the field trip for the intro to hospitality and tourism. we were doing on the ulu ulu restaurant at the entrance of the night safari. it was before entering the night safari so we need not pay the admission fee. the buffet is $35++ but added up to about $41 per person in the end. expensive........... i would never spend so much on a meal but no choice, have to pose as a customer. in the end the buffet was only... okay... not impressive at all to me. the service was above average. service crew was friendly. very very nice dining environment. and i noticed something, when we were dining in, there were also japanese tourists. the amount of food they took was very little. there was this lady who took only sushi. but hell i tasted the sushi and they were bloody disappointing. i bet she was disappointed too.the sushis were very small with meagre ingredients like cucumbers and hams.............. wth..... there was also cured fish, wtf? i thought they were sashimi and was damn happy. TMD, it was bloody salty, i eat abit i sian and put it aside. the food i tasted there, i could have gotten them better at hawker centres and cheaper. i believe that is not the best Singapore can offer in terms of food. i tell u, with that 41 dollars i could have gone to Sakura for buffet dinner and have about 15 dollars left. though sakura does not have the kind of atmosphere that ulu ulu restaurant offers, but i believe it offers much more high quality food. here we are trying to promote Singapore as a food paradise yet we are offering such food at a tourism attraction. i really feel bad for the tourists, it seems to me that they are being exploited. the only thing about the restaurant which left an impression on me was the layout and atmosphere of the restaurant. it was very tribal style with wood all over. the wooden tables looked very clean, serviettes used were of quality. so good that they felt like cloth. the layout on the tables were very very neat. everything was clean and pleasant even for the toilets, i took afew pictures, i will post them.

dining experience - very very nice, unique atmosphere. a pro of its category.
food - too too too normal, does not leave an impression on its patrons

hahaha, i'm a evil critic!! hahaha! good day!

good day

choosing to blog at the wrong times

its kinda late right now and tomorrow is the final mid semester test, fundamentals of food and beverage. i have a hell lotta stuff to study. i have about 5 or 6 lectures to study and i'm not even half through, look at the time man. hahaha, but i'm here blogging, damn. i'm mad. hope hope hope the fnb test wouldbe easy!! lets see, i still have the stupid oil lecture, the meat lecture, the seafood lecture and the food preservation lecture and the damn stupid different cuts of the damn cow and pig. shit.... i should stop complaining now and get to work!! cheong! good day!

mid semester tests are coming!

i shouldn't say mid sem tests are coming! i should say... THEY HERE!!!! they start on monday!!! after this post i'm gonna go study macro econs!!! BECAUSE ITS MACROECONS TEST ON MONDAY!! shit, i cannot fail! D.W.M CHEONG! i was super slack today, i slept till 12pm, woke up to have my breakfast then i went back to sleep. i woke up again at about 3.30pm to have lunch............ super lazy man. i finished up studying RHT. can't say i'm very sure about the subject but... well, i'll read again one day before the RHT test, hahaha! i was suppose to start on econs after finishing RHT but kayhowe suddenly asked me on msn whether want to play dota. play play play till just now, hahaha! ok, time to start on econs!! CHEONG!!! GOOD DAY!

AN UNBELIEVABLE COINCIDENCE!

today was school, had macro econs in the morning at 9am, that mr gary guy's lesson super interesting and his ability to impart knowledge is good. hahaha, probably the best tutor, i've had met so far. then it was fnb tutorial at 11am after macro econs. mr sim asked me some questions about my last assignment, of course i wouldn't be able to remember very clearly what i had done. just because i could not remember the details of what was in my powerpoint slide doesn't give him the right to suspect that the work wasn't done by me. i was bloody angry when he said 'i hope the work was done by u.' wtf? i do until so late then u suspect its not my work?! dammit, anyway, forget about that, i'm here to talk about the 'coincidence of the year'.

during fnb lesson we were supposed to exchanged papers and mark each others' papers. i didn't study, luckily i passed. but for the girl, emily whom i marked for, she didn't, i felt bad, but well, there was nothing i could do. her admin no. was 06... something something, so i guess she's probably from year 2 repeating fnb or something. after RHT which ended at 6pm, i went to library to look for kayhowe, he wanted to get a bag for his laptop. he wanted to go to queensway shopping centre to look for his nike hoops messenger bag. he was damned obsessed about it. it was a laptop bag and had a lock?? i admit it, it looked nice. but these sorta things come with a horrible price tag. it costs almost a hundred. well. to me its expensive, to some of y'all it may not be. hahaha! we combed the whole queensway shopping but couldn't find it. anyway, he learnt about it from seiyu at bugis, then one day he went back then the bag gone le. then he was saying how he regret not buying the other day. after queensway, we took bus 197 to bugis. we were sitting at the back of the bus. nearing bugis, the bus stopped, i leaned forward and looked out of the window to my left. p.s i was not beside the window, i was in the middle of width of the bus. then i saw a figure really familiar, exactly what emily was wearing in the afternoon. i couldn't make out the face, but i could roughly see the hair and clothes she was wearing. this was already a coincidence. then she actually looked in and saw me as well. hahaha! then we looked at each other and froze for awhile, then she waved and i waved back. then the bus started moving again. hahaha, this is a coincidence right? all the, bus gang gang hao stop where we could see each other and we did. well, i think it is, hahaha! interesting..... i'm gonna stop here now loh, good day!

feeling bored

My lecture is suppose to start at 2pm but i'm already in school to do my fnb assignment, felt bored so came here to write alittle bit of stuff, hahaha. and YES! this will be the last fnb assignment!! muahahahaha!!! no more looking for dishes!! this week we're suppose to look for ten indian vegetarian dishes. hmmm... not too difficult i guess, but it really takes up alot of time. i'm sitting at my usual place at lvl 6 of the library, super quiet, very little people, thats y i like to come here in the morning. very nice environment to study. however its a very nice place to sleep as well. hahahaha! i'm going to end here and continue my fnb. good day

communication skills test on monday!

oh no! oh no! there's a test on monday!!!! i have to research on one of the topics which include single gender relationships, casino, environmental awareness, sports culture and idol mania. i was intending to do single gender relationships because it seemed interesting initially but i thought it was too difficult and decided to change to casinos instead, and i'm researching now!! my eyelids are dropping. last night i went out with a friend, she got kicked out of the house supposedly so she asked me go dhoby ghaut accompany her. nothing much, she was playing audition at the lan shop when i got there. she call another friend come then we go walk around, go esplanade talk talk talk, then they wanted to go marina bay there play arcade, so we went. then around 7am then we go home, i was damn tired, felt like cabbing home, but i realise i shouldn't waste anymore money so take mrt in the end. go home too tired too bathe already, jumped onto my bed and sleep till 2pm when i bathed and made my way to liptat's house to discuss NYAA skills development stuff. they decided to do plastic modelling, gundam building etc. after that we went kfc to eat. i solo-ed buddy meal! haha! i feel damn guilty now, i'm going to get damn fat if i keep eating like that all the time. i must make myself save money and eat less, i'm going to bring less money to school everyday, i'm going to leave my atm card at home!! no more wasting money! no more eating alot!! argh! so after kfc we made our way home. take 158 to aljunied then mrt. then alan, kayhowe and i walked home. saw dianzhuang my pri school friend on the way back. haha, he's still the same crapper i know 5 years ago. hahaha! we talked for damn long, mostly crap. hahaha! i think i'll do my research for the stupid test tomorrow, i'm damn stressed about the plagiarising, i'm afraid that i'll plagiarise unknowingly then fail the test, damn. anyway, we're suppose to do a expository i.e something like an argumentative and state all the sources we used in our essay. if never state, means plagiarism and will fail, damn! so ma fan sia. hai... tomorrrow then research lah, tired loh, going to sleep now, good day!

yue liang dai biao wo de xin

haha! u must be wondering why the title of this post is 'yue liang dai biao wo de xin'? cuz its the song of the day! haha! today i had macro econs lecture at 2pm and intro to hospitality and tourism at 4pm. during econs lecture, don't know how, the boys started singing classics and it all started with yue liang dai biao wo de xin. then rong shu xia, then cha shao bao. we were dismissed 30 mins before 4pm, they take my laptop and started downloading these songs, haha, quite crazy, but well.. quite fun lah. hahaha! then there was intro H&T tutorial, basically the whole lesson was about the field trip and group project and problem-based learning stuff. 6pm we were dismissed, albert and i went to TM to get some stuff. i needed to get a belt and he, printer ink. haha, if yall dunno, i was wearing a pair of jeans with a waist line of 42 inch, damn damn loose. i think if i took off my belt it'll literally drop. anyway, i need a new belt because the holes in the old belt gonna 'break' already.

its gonna be friday again, friday is the day 1H07 hands in their FNB assignments and thats screwed up. i hate the FNB assignments. every week u have to find 10 dishes fitting certain criteria. the first week one was preserved foods, second was game meats and this week, seafood from northern, eastern and western China. i'm only on my third dish after working for 3hours in school today. i went school at 10.30am today, haha, going school early is GOOD! hahaha, tp's library lvl 6 is really a nice place to be, i go my usual place everytime i'm alone there. hahaha! well i'll end right here. good day.

good class!

first post since i got into temasek poly. so far the first week has been great, really nice people in my class, 1H07. very enthusiastic class. muahahahaha, lazy to post anymore, good day

my next direction...

when i lost u, i felt there was nothing in my life to look forward, but hell, u won't control my life, because ur not dammit worth it. u used to worth everything to me, but no, ur nothing now. bloody nothing to me. i will look for my next direction in life, i will not stray for long. i still got great friends with me, friends who will not betray me. to everyone who care to read what i've got to say, thank you very much, ur a friend.

well it ended.

my long wait was finally over. time to move on. that night we thrashed things out. i really learned alot. surprising how i had wasted so much time and effort on u when really, u weren't even sure whether u liked me. whats done's done, time wasted is time wasted. i really hope this doesn't happen to me again cuz its really heartbreaking. but i can't believe u said it had always been one-sided. what were those words u said before? were they just lies? hai... i don't understand, just because it was difficult for u to tell me to stop waiting, i am suppose to play the fool...? my worst fears had come true, i had always had the feeling that u didn't really love me. u said it was impossible for us because we were 2 different people, but isn't the beauty of love is that it brings 2 different individuals together..? of course it was impossible, u never was sure whether u liked me. of course one-sideness is impossible. whats even more hurting that u seemed indifferent about it and treated like everything was normal.... its not normal, not for me. u said u've experienced it before, so y must u do this to me? y must u tell me the truth only when i asked? if i never asked, were u going to pretend that i never existed? well... everything's normal to u, hope ur happy with him. well it ended. it should've ended a long time ago.

if anyone's wondering...

if anyone's wondering why i'm not at CLT course right now, well.. i got kicked out on the second morning which was 3 of april, quite screwed when i spent so much money buying the white shirts and dark shorts and other stuff needed for the camp. the people in charged of the camp are quite fucked up anyway. i got kicked out cuz i failed their napfa test. actually quite screw up. i went for the zhiyong's farewell on 5 of april, maybe getting kicked out of the camp wasn't that bad after all. it was quite a success, except for some misunderstandings between the organisers and the sec 4s. zhiyong didn't learn that he had a farewell until we wanted him to. it was a very busy day. been really lazy to update recently. hahaha. good day...

tomorrow's affirmation ceremony!

hahaha, i dunno y i want to go the affirmation ceremony. i just want to go back. maybe its because i want to go back to anglican high. i find out i love anglican high now even more than i did before when i was still studying there. i want to study in ahs again!!! damn... secondary school life rocks, i think i'm going to hate poly life. so i want to go back ahs as often as possible. this is one of the main reasons i decided to be a CLT. another main reason is of course because of ncc lah! hahaha! today me and kayhowe suppose to meet at 9am. i woke up at 8.30am, bathed and all. i smsed him at 9am whether he was coming my house yet. he said he was coming. i told him to come my house when he was done. haha, i went back to sleep while waiting. i sleep until 11am. then i smsed him again. he said he went to sleep then just woke up only, hahahaha! well.. it was a good thing, i got to sleep alittle bit more! on the way to my house he bought sugarcane juice and nasi lemak from the market. actually the nasi lemak not bad, especially the chicken wing. we went to bugis to shop for clothes. in the end he got a gift and i got a card... no clothes. hahahaa, then we went back to bedok in the evening. i had chicken rice for dinner. i go home then kayhowe went SOMEWHERE ELSE, DO OTHER STUFF. hahahaha! at night went tampines continue present shopping, only me, but he came with me. couldn't find anything good. then we go kfc eat. shit i eat so much i'm getting fat. damn. CLT course is coming!!!!! starts on monday!!!!!! CHEONG!