good class!

first post since i got into temasek poly. so far the first week has been great, really nice people in my class, 1H07. very enthusiastic class. muahahahaha, lazy to post anymore, good day

my next direction...

when i lost u, i felt there was nothing in my life to look forward, but hell, u won't control my life, because ur not dammit worth it. u used to worth everything to me, but no, ur nothing now. bloody nothing to me. i will look for my next direction in life, i will not stray for long. i still got great friends with me, friends who will not betray me. to everyone who care to read what i've got to say, thank you very much, ur a friend.

well it ended.

my long wait was finally over. time to move on. that night we thrashed things out. i really learned alot. surprising how i had wasted so much time and effort on u when really, u weren't even sure whether u liked me. whats done's done, time wasted is time wasted. i really hope this doesn't happen to me again cuz its really heartbreaking. but i can't believe u said it had always been one-sided. what were those words u said before? were they just lies? hai... i don't understand, just because it was difficult for u to tell me to stop waiting, i am suppose to play the fool...? my worst fears had come true, i had always had the feeling that u didn't really love me. u said it was impossible for us because we were 2 different people, but isn't the beauty of love is that it brings 2 different individuals together..? of course it was impossible, u never was sure whether u liked me. of course one-sideness is impossible. whats even more hurting that u seemed indifferent about it and treated like everything was normal.... its not normal, not for me. u said u've experienced it before, so y must u do this to me? y must u tell me the truth only when i asked? if i never asked, were u going to pretend that i never existed? well... everything's normal to u, hope ur happy with him. well it ended. it should've ended a long time ago.

if anyone's wondering...

if anyone's wondering why i'm not at CLT course right now, well.. i got kicked out on the second morning which was 3 of april, quite screwed when i spent so much money buying the white shirts and dark shorts and other stuff needed for the camp. the people in charged of the camp are quite fucked up anyway. i got kicked out cuz i failed their napfa test. actually quite screw up. i went for the zhiyong's farewell on 5 of april, maybe getting kicked out of the camp wasn't that bad after all. it was quite a success, except for some misunderstandings between the organisers and the sec 4s. zhiyong didn't learn that he had a farewell until we wanted him to. it was a very busy day. been really lazy to update recently. hahaha. good day...

tomorrow's affirmation ceremony!

hahaha, i dunno y i want to go the affirmation ceremony. i just want to go back. maybe its because i want to go back to anglican high. i find out i love anglican high now even more than i did before when i was still studying there. i want to study in ahs again!!! damn... secondary school life rocks, i think i'm going to hate poly life. so i want to go back ahs as often as possible. this is one of the main reasons i decided to be a CLT. another main reason is of course because of ncc lah! hahaha! today me and kayhowe suppose to meet at 9am. i woke up at 8.30am, bathed and all. i smsed him at 9am whether he was coming my house yet. he said he was coming. i told him to come my house when he was done. haha, i went back to sleep while waiting. i sleep until 11am. then i smsed him again. he said he went to sleep then just woke up only, hahahaha! well.. it was a good thing, i got to sleep alittle bit more! on the way to my house he bought sugarcane juice and nasi lemak from the market. actually the nasi lemak not bad, especially the chicken wing. we went to bugis to shop for clothes. in the end he got a gift and i got a card... no clothes. hahahaa, then we went back to bedok in the evening. i had chicken rice for dinner. i go home then kayhowe went SOMEWHERE ELSE, DO OTHER STUFF. hahahaha! at night went tampines continue present shopping, only me, but he came with me. couldn't find anything good. then we go kfc eat. shit i eat so much i'm getting fat. damn. CLT course is coming!!!!! starts on monday!!!!!! CHEONG!

i'm back again

just came back from supper with kayhowe, haha, i know i shouldn't go for suppers. but well.. i couldn't resist the temptation, hahaha! and it was quite heavy somemore. i had chicken chop and kayhowe had chicken cutlet. then we had a bowl of 3 dollars bar chor mee each. we did this the other day too. exact same food somemore, hahaha! today i went to national library with ngia fung and alvin. ngiafung wanted to research on his project work. alvin went there to do his chemistry homework. and me? i was there to slack. hahaha! after that go bugis walk around then go old chang kee buy squids!!! hahaha! after that nf go back to work at his parents' stall, i go with alvin to collect guitar from his friend. then go home. this is my boring life, good day

no.1, no.3 and no.4!!!

today went out with boju to help him decide on which laptop to buy, so went to ngee ann poly at clementi. we went to dover then change to bus 74 to go ngee ann poly. haha, he could've just put SP which is just beside the dover mrt station but he didn't......... he's gonna have a hard time these 3 years, travelling between east and west everyday. ke lian. in the end he got a lenovo thinkpad t60 which costs 2.4k, half the while he was worrying about the laptop being unable to go into his bag................ then he went for his colour vision test as required by his course 'aerospace technology'

after his test we left the place and took 154 outside ngee ann poly to clementi to have lunch. i ate fish and chips. 6 dollars but not worth the money at all. the food is just..... too ordinary. tooooooooooooooooooooo ordinary that it sucks. eat already we took mrt to yio chu kang to collect uniforms. i'm going for CLT course. to everyone who's reading this, don tell anyone i'm going CLT course! like that then got the element of surprise. haha, its a residential course so yall probably won't be able to contact me from 2 april to 14 april. however i'll be able to book out on the weekend. i'll be contactable then. i think. lucky we went yesterday and not today. later today have to back yio chu kang for the CLT course briefing. so i bet alot of them will be collecting uniforms today too. they're gonna regret it cuz its gonna take alot of time. 2 sets of no.4 including boots, beret, jockey cap, socks, gutters. 1 set of no. 3 with boots and socks and belt. 1 set of no.1 with the buttons and stuff and the head gear. the no.1 is on loan but the rest is FREE! hahaha! as u can expect, its alot of stuff, so we took a cab back home, 14 dollars sia. go home damn tired, i eat dinner i go sleep then i wake up now. sian, donthink i can get back to sleep already loh. hahaha, i go eat 'mr potato' chips! hahaha! good day

never fell in love with someone so deeply before, never fell so hard before

went out

yesteday went out with george to bugis. he said the cinema seats there were comfortable and lots of leg space, so he wanted to go there to watch a movie... wth... hahaha! we watched the messenger. ghost show. about some psychotic father who killed his whole family in the house. then years later another family moved in. then the dead people start 'warning' the new family about the father who came to work at their farm. standard story, the daughter tell the parents, parents never believe and stuff. the seats also not as good as george described it lah. the one we were allocated faulty one then we changed seats. go out with george surely won't do anything much one, haha, always is watch movie then he'll say go home. he'll probably go home and sleep. hahaha! now's after twelve already, today going gym with george. he suddenly wanna go, hhaa, weird. well i think i better go sleep already, goodnight, good day.


i want to talk to you but i don want to talk to you, i have nothing to say to you, but i have alot of things to ask you

i want to be free of you

am i holding false hopes...? how i long for you, how i long to be free of you, doesn't that sound contradicting..? it is. i am sad, i am hurt. how i can be nothing more than an ordinary friend to you? sad but true. i know these chains were bounded by no one but myself, they should never have been made, now i have to break free of them myself. these chains are thick and heavy, with every second they stay bounded, i am crushed onto the ground. strangely, it only hurts beneath my chest. only i have have the power to break free, but i am hesitating.... i hate this pain, i want to be free. i'm locked and stuck.... for the moment.

back again

DAMN, my pay haven come. DAMN. the agency there screw up. called and said earliest i will get the money will be on monday and latest on wednesday. sian ah, by then the IT show over already. i want a laptop! haha, don think my pay would be enough to pay for it, but i just want a laptop. damn. no money. shit. i'm still jobless... shit. slack damn long loh. hahaha! anyway, for those who don't know, i've been posted to temasek poly, taking hospitality and tourism management. i can't wait for school to start, i'm damn bored at home sia. don't think anybody wants to employ someone who's about to start school soon. end here, good day

i'm slack

been slacking for the past 1 week plus since my journey as promoter of yeo hiap seng drinks ended. my mother is pressing me to look for another job again, damn... so i'm meeting george tomorrow at bedok interchange to look for a job together. hope by tomorrow can find. if not my parents will keep bugging me. hahaha. then i'll be busy again, i really hope to be busy. very busy so that i won't have to time to do anything else like maping. recently i've been mapling alot. my schedule has been completely changed. i sleep in the afternoon, evening cheong maple until 3am. yesterday cheong till 4am. then go to sleep till noon. play play play. then sleep, at night play maple again. my whole day revolves around the computer. i know its not good, i really should get a job. i found a factory job in the classifieds. all 12 hour block. either 8am to 8pm or 8pm to 8am. that'll ought to keep me busy. well, tomorrow then say lah.

my pay will come on march 7, and results of postings will be released on 6 march. i heard the 'hospitality and tourism management' will require an interview sia. shit, i hate interviews. shit. damn. ok i'll end right here, good day

no time no time

haha, haven been updating recently cuz of working, recently keep doing 12 hours a day, damn tired, but soon will end loh. this friday is the last day. today whole day headache, but still gotta carry stuff, better go off soon andrest, don wanna have another headache tomorrow. anyway, Os results were really better than what i expected, i expected to fail my geog but i got a b3. tyco sia. L1R5 14, L1R4 11. i still thinking whether to go poly or jc........ hai... tomorrow morning meet george online to discuss then submit the application. hai... good day

eight to eight is tiring

today goods came 2 times. once in the morning and once in the afternoon. morning one was ok cuz got alot people do. william, the head, stanley the assistant, another guy from eastpoint and me. after unloading arranging the stuff they left to go other outlets. the 2nd stock taking one was damn tiring sia... i was alone at the ntuc outlet at that time, alone i pulled the pellet on which were the goods, using a jack. that was what they called it, a 'jack' . it was the first time i was using it, somemore alone. the thing is damn heavy, go over ur toes surely break. i heard it happened once before from william. i spent a hell lotta time on the first pellet of goods. they came back while i was doing the 2nd pellet. heng ah, if not i think i die there. after finish the 2nd one, they left again dunno go where then i replenish stocks and left at eight. 12 hours actually quite tiring, good day

work work work

recently have been all just work work work, yesterday which is about half an hour ago, i work from nine in the morning to nine at night. damn tiring sia. hahaha! but i'm still online! probably gonna sleep soon already. later i work at 8am............. sian, then dunno have to work until what time. heng tuesday off ah, if not really can die sia.... tomorrow will be george's off day. we work at the same outlet, bedok interchange ntuc. we take turns to rest because everyday must have at least one person at the outlet. normal working time is usually 10am to 6pm or 1pm to 9pm. i have to work early tomorrow because the stupid goods coming early in the morning. hope i don have to work until nine at night sia. my job is basically to promote yeo's drinks and replenish stocks. both inside the ntuc and outside at the tentage where the cny goods are kept. superiors are friendly. this job actually not bad. got people to talk to also. there's the carlsberg guy and the allswell girl. i only know the allswell girl's name though. her name is aiping. she's damn slack, then talk to customers sian sian one. i've actually done alot of stuff thats outta my job scope, i'm suppose to be a 'station boy', yet i go join the set up crew quite afew times to set up station at ntuc tentages. well. not bad lah, more pay! can't wait for cny to be over then i will get hongbao money and my pay! and dunno the seoul garden pay go inside my account already or not, must go check, hope will amount to a thousand, if not this holiday quite wasted sia... haha, i'll end now, good day!

jobby

hi people, i'm back again, today's the 22th, i've officially slacked for 3 full weeks+ 1 day. everyday my father comes home from work the first thing he'll ask is 'found a job yet?' or if he reaches home first and sees me opening the door, he'll say 'go work is it?' well, of course i answer no. i guess its really time to look for another job and make money! i'm waiting for the rest of my seoul garden pay, probably be about 200 i suppose? my account only left 10 dollars only!!! i have make it increase to 1000 by the end of this holiday if not this holiday is completely wasted. CHEONG WORK! tomorrow i'm meeting george at mac at 10.30am armed with newpapers to find job. MUST GET A JOB TOMORROW! as each day passes, the closer we edge towards judgement day. RESULT DAY! so fast sia... SHIT. like i said before, if i can't get to tpjc, i'm going to temasek poly loh. i have a feeling i'm going to hate jc life sia, hahaha! i'll just take one step at a time.... wish me luck in finding a job tomorrow! good day

chalet is over... and i'm broke

the chalet was quite disappointing actually, there were people who said they would come but didn't turn up in the end. the first day of chalet was on 11th of january, last thursday. only me, george, jarred and roy stayed that night. did lots of preparation, marinating the chicken wings and stuff. realised i forgot to bring the marinating sauces. heng kayhowe help me bring the stuff over from my house. i tell ya, if kayhowe wasn't there to help me, this chalet would not have been possible. buy stuff, carry stuff. there was a hell lotta stuff to carry. george bring DVDs to watch. friday come, roy and jarred go home, forgot what they said they wanted to do. jarred came back in the evening but roy didn't. the bbq was ruined because of the damn rain, yingqi and clement came in the evening too. ying qi helped with the starting of the fire while clement watched TV. hahaha! oh ya, and i cooked curry chicken!! muahahahaha, though i didn't really make the curry, is use the paste cook one. but the chicken is i chop one and i'm damn proud of it! fried rice is george cook one, honestly, the fried rice quite nice sia. because of the stupid rain we used aluminium trays too cook. we need an elevated platform to place the aluminium trays on so we used the foldable table. in the end, we burnt it quite badly. u should have seen, the whole chalet was damn smokey. at night more people came, including mrs ganesan who came with a box of pies!! we watched DVDs till quite late, we watched a show called 'imprint'. i tell ya, once u watch that show, u'd think saw 2 is nothing compared to it, that show left a deep impression on all of us, hahaha! next day, saturday i forgot do what already, i only remembered go the beach near the chalet then they go play sand, on top is a picture of the people who were there. haha, yanyan and cindy gave me a birthday present! a float that i can only fit my head, a nice pair of slippers and a shirt which says 'i don't have an attitude, i just think i'm always right'. oh ya! did i say shitat's birthday was on friday, evelyn's birthday was on saturday i think. jiemin jiaxiang they all got a cake for us. us because they didn't forget about me!!! the cake said 'happy birthday dennis shitat evelyn' its been such a long time since i had a birthday cake. so long since it was celebrated. thank you people! i really appreciate it! saturday not many people stayed, lets see.... what did we do on sunday...... we went kbox. of course, i didn't touch the mic much because most of them were chinese songs and i never listen. and the english songs ones, the music videos like dunno what sia. don wanna describe.... there was honghong, me, george, shitat, junyuan and christopher in the the 'box'. hong hong and me left early back to the chalet cuz he wanted to get some stuff then go home. after he left i waited at the bus stop for the rest to come back. shitat, junyuan, ivan(came after they finished singing at kbox) and christtopher came back. pack the chalet awhile then they say want go OCH. ji dan, i lazy describe what happen lah. and nope, we didn't meet any funny funny stuff. go back chalet sleep, christopher left after a while cuz he gotta go school, ivan and junyuan left quite late i heard from shitat, hahaha! i was sleeping then. morning pack and checked out. lots of stuff to pay for, had to fork out money to pay my mother. super broke already. today went play pool and eat sakura at parkway. oh no, i spent money!!!!!! shit, must save save save, damn! haiya i end now loh, good day

hey

sorry i didn't update on my birthday as i said i would, but there really was nothing on that day worth blogging about, so good day. today i went to Singapore Poly openhouse, its located at dover, don really like the place though i have no idea why, i just don like it. anyway, nothing much to blog today too, good day

end of seoul garden for me

my last day at seoul garden was yesterday 31december 2006. i worked the whole day until night and did countdown alone on the bus. kayhowe smsed me ask me go out to eat supper but too tired, no mood to go out and not hungry also so i rejected him. go home bathe, used the com awhile then went to sleep. then today i went out with kayhowe to ikea, actually its quite an interesting place sia. we had lunch there, quite crowded. took quite awhile before we found seat. i waited at the seat awhile kayhowe went to get the food, muahahahaha, i feel like i'm bullying him sia.... eat already go walk around the place. at around 2.40pm we left the building. then got ice cream! we go buy. just started eating then suddenly we saw the shuttle bus come, we cheong the ice cream. i finish damn fast then kayhowe still got alot, he quickly asked me to help him finish, but couldn't fniish fast enough, the bus driver saw us then gestured to us to wait for the next bus. but we stubborn. i quickly finish the stupid ice cream then we chase the bus. the shuttle bus goes from tampines mrt to ikea then to courts megastore then back to tampines mrt. we chase the bus around ikea then towards courts megastore. i finished the ice cream while running. when the bus driver saw us he damn stun sia. so we boarded the bus at courts megastore. actually we could have ran straight to the courts megastore but we go and follow the bus route, turn around ikea then go courts megastore. damn stupid sia. hahaha! it'll be my birthday in about half an hour. but it doesn't seem very special to me, it'll be just like any other, i will blog about it tomorrow, till then, good day

as usual...

as usual, today go to work, my shift start at 12pm all the way until 5pm, today super sian, didn't really feel like working but still tried to smile at the customers, fortunately none of them were mean. then aini my colleague and friend told me she gotta attend a wedding dinner tomorrow night, told me to help her cover her shift. so i agreed. so tomorrow, which was suppose to my off day, is now occupied. sian................ i hate doing night shifts, i hate clearing up and cleaning!!! hahaha, but at least i don have to wake up so early tomorrow. then sunday christmas eve i also have to work, also night shift. monday there's a gift exchange at 10pm i think, everyone buy present and exchange. haha, haven done that for a really long time. i'm quitting at the end of the month, i think i will miss the people at seoul garden.

after work today, i went to eat ajisen with zhenyan, cindy and ngia fung. i ate pork curry ramen! very nice! but i never stir properly before then i finish the noodles, the bottom soup
damn thick, quite salty, if not i would've finished the soup. cindy order the dunno what volcano ramen, damn spicy, she eat until want to die like that, hahaha! ngia fung ate pork curry ramen too. he eat until his face super sweaty, like just finished running like that, seriously...

after eating, i rushed off to my uncle's house, just came back not long ago. they want to gather cuz my aunt and cousins just came back from England. talk and take pictures, not much stuff. hope i'll be in a better mood to work tomorrow. hai... good day

today's just another day

nothing much happened today, i was on floor, heng not on 'hot', if not i screw up like crazy again, today is 1st shift, tomorrow gotta work again, but is 2nd shift, have to go home late. hope the month faster end then i don have to work already, and i can't wait for the chalet to come. i can't wait to start doing NYAA gold, i can't wait to get Os results, not that i think that they'll be good, its because by then, it'll be february and then i'll know where i'm going to go, jc or poly. i hate the feeling of being direction-less. i end now loh, nothing to say loh, good day