the promise - tracy chapman

If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting

Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise If it's one that you can keep, I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.

i going to talk about my life with the guitar!

i got my first guitar in sec 1! it was a yamaha classical. i bought from my friend for 20 dollars!! i have no idea where it is now. but i still remember the warcraft undead race sticker on it! i really miss it. i still the remember the times when i was still a beginner. i was really afraid of strumming the guitar because i thought the strings would break. i started to learn guitar because of NYAA bronze. i was excited about learning the guitar, but i failed at it because i failed to realise that it required practice and i lacked patience. we learnt at yamaha music school. my friends and i from NCC attended lessons for awhile until the NYAA criteria was met then we all quit together, except for afew who continued for awhile but quit in the end still. and so.. the guitar was left there. they were classical guitar lessons. too many unheard pieces, i guess it was the why reason we lost interest in it so quickly. i didn't have a real interest in music at that time too. after quitting, it was as good as saying i didn't attended guitar lessons because although they taught us how to read notes, it was completely forgotten. they didn't teach how to read tabs (notation for guitar only), they didn't teach strumming. anyways, about my classical guitar i haven't seen it in years.

as naive i was at the time, i thought that my guitar wasn't good. so... i got my mother to buy a Squire electric guitar pack for me (meaning it included an electric guitar, an amplifier, some picks, a strap and gig bag; the gig bag sucked anyway, its the worst i've/u've ever seen, trust me). i got it at sweelee at bras besah in 2004 (sec 2). so it layed in my home. of course there is the temporary craze over it. but it wore off in weeks. it was left lying there. subsequently, my friends whom knew i had an electric, borrowed it. after since, it was found mostly in my friends' house. friends because there were afew people who borrowed it. i lent it out because i wasn't using it anyways but really, i didn't want to lend to anyone at all because those friends were not really spontaneous in returning stuff. anyways, it came back recently with a broken amplifier. there was a sweelee sale the other day, i went and bought a Laney amp. it was kinda big and heavy so i dialled a cab and went home with. the sweelee warehouse is in a very ulu place. got it for 150 dollars at 50% off. original price was 300 dollars. so i guess it was kinda a good deal. i didn't manage to get my money back for the broken amp. some friends eh? i hate to ask people for money, i think money spoils relationships as the chinese saying goes 'jiang qian shang gan qing'. so oh well... nevermind. forget it.

i got my next guitar i think in secondary 3. it's a TGM acoustic, i'm unsure of what it means but my friend says it means 'the guitar man'. i got it for... err.. 65 dollars i think. it's lying in the guitar bag now with one string broken. i tuned the string the wrong way and well it broke. hahaha!.... anyway, u must have thought, at time i had already neglected my electric guitar, why did i still buy another guitar? it was through pressure from another friend, (i think i get pressured very easily, ha!) but it was good pressure i guess. he came to my house, he started by teaching me afew chords and a strumming pattern. well i practised for awhile, the same thing happened as with the electric guitar, the craze then the cold treatment. at that period of time, i just wanted to know how to play the guitar. but it is a vague statement. how do u define if a person is worthy of being said 'he knows how to play the guitar.' ? back to where i was. the cold treatment. so i stopped playing the guitar with me having no idea how to strum properly. but at that moment i already knew how to read tabs. but of course they are really easy to read, anyone could start reading them in minutes. they're basically the guitar on paper. guitar= 6 strings, tabs = 6 lines. i still remember the first chord progression my friend taught me, G - Em - C and D. that was all i knew.

with so many times of picking up the guitar and giving up. y'all must be wondering how i started
to play the guitar again right?! err.... even ur not, i'll post next time,HAHAHA, thats all for today!

wow, that was really long.

feels kinda weird

i used to love this girl. i have this friend, this classmate. they go to the same school. i think they're together. it just feels really weird.

random post

i was prepared to go to school until before i opened the door to leave the hour, i realised i haven't printed my accounting lecture notes, so i'm printing them now. seriously, the accounting notes damn alot sia, i think just i pressed somethin and the printing stopped haflway, damn. anyways, if anyone printed single side all the way for accounting, i bet his notes are damn thick, hahaha! i'm coming here just to kill time while printing the shit. damn i'm not looking forward to accounting lecture, gonna be freaking boring again. well, print finish already, time go to school

you could take a little trip around singapore river~

went for the group field trip yesterday. woke up at 9.17am when i was suppose to reach raffles place at 10am. but i hurried up and boarded the mrt at 9.50am. not bad eh. bathed, ate my breakfast and reached there really fast. i reached raffles place at about 10.15am. i wasn't the latest though, quanhao came awhile later, khermeng came shortly after quanhao. kher meng came from camp, he looked like he was going to the market, hahaha! shaun kept calling him ah peh. as in 'father' hahaha! anyway, we left the mrt together at 10.30am, walked around, we took picture with some big bird statue. the weather was really hot. as usual i sweat like crazy. after awhile we couldn't take it went to mac to properly discuss where to take pictures at before stepping under the scorching sun. we took pictures at Victoria Concert Hall, asian civilisation museum, at the singapore river and with some cosplay people, the pictures are with nat if u want to see them. they were dressing like characters in D Gray Man. i don't have the group pictures, but i do have some random ones. hahaha! not exactly interesting pictures, but i'll post them anyways.




the photographer getting the models ready



the final product: they are acting, no scandal of any sort surrounding these 2, hahaha!

Lets101 - Online Dating

saw lots of people putting this on their blog. true or not? maybe? u decide

SSM today.

SSM started out okay, opening was fine and all. we were heavily low on manpower. 6 people were taken out of sugar loaf crew to serve president nathan who came for some '>60 official opening', above that, there were absentees. but i must say yvonne the headwaiter did a great job today. and of course our beloved phoebe, the assistant headwaiter! they did a great job organising Sugar Loaf. hahaha! great job to everyone! except me. i started off operations by dropping the first plate on the tray i cleared. that potato gratin, i will never forget that moment. how it bounced off the table while i watched helplessly as it headed for the cold hard floor. without thinking, i grabbed the 2 pieces of ceramics and holding it so that the contents wouldn't fall off. but the contents spilled on my hand, it was freaking HOT. but of course at that moment i was embarrassed enough, i didn't want to embarrass myself further by putting the pieces on the table and saying it's hot. i turned around to see mr malik staring at me. i froze for a moment and asked him what to do. as usual, 'headwaiter!' but before that i cheonged to the stewarding room to drop off the broken potato gratin bowl or whatever it is called. i was really embarrassed, furthermore those students were from HTM too. i really 'lao kui-ed' myself. yvonne helped me wrap up the broken pieces while i cleaned up the mess quickly. THANK YOU YVONNE! u know when u commit a mistake then u'll feel like too malu-ed to go into the operation area again. i was really scared. but i knew i had to face it. then i walked like nothing happened, but deep inside i was feeling horrible. i destroyed her potato gratin!!!!!!!!! nooooooooooooo......... damn, stupid me. it was afterwards replaced with a tortilla. cuz after i destroyed her potato gratin there were no more left in the display. but when the tortilla was served gang gang hao the potato gratins came. yvonne served it too. THANK YOU YVONNE!

After the horrible incident, everything went quite well. then somethin interesting happened. because after awhile all the people who were suppose to serve mr nathan had left. then only left me and celine the captains without waiters. hahaha! i went to clear a guy's table, then i heard him say 'shit, then later she cannot clear', but of course, i know who he was referring to because there was only one person clearing stuff other than me. of course that 'she' was celine. i told celine about it. she said that guy had asked for her number. hahaha! understandable, i think celine is really pretty. but i didn't like the 'shit then later she cannot clear'. are u saying it so loudly so that i would actually put the tray down so that celine can clear it for u? fat hope...

I went to do PD for the last half hour of SSM. went to do with miao hong. walked through engineering school, no business. walk to business school then business start coming in, hahaha! ryun kiat got forced by his classmates to buy my orange pound cake, hahaha! i should sms him to apologise later. the damn cake was 5 dollars, i wouldn't buy it, i hate orange. hahaha! we earned only 15 dollars for walking from TCA to business and back.

at the end of the day, we didn't earn enough to hit our target which was 1400 dollars, it wasn't really our target, it was THEIR target, we didn't set it. we only earned 1320 dollars. 80 dollars short. today was a day of non stop action because of the shortage of manpower. was really really really tired.

Top Table today!

    some pictures of food! 

The setting! see the hands grabbing the menu like a rabbit? thats purdee! HAHAHA!

The Onion Gratinee.. i think

Sorry but i got his name, but he's a chicken thigh! hahaha! swimming around are potato cubes and onions and red peppers, i think

The poached pear with sorbe! nice! never knew pear could taste like that.

Not bad, albert suggested going to top table every thursday.... yeahyeah, go until the people are sick of us. go until everyone there know us right? hahaha! but actually, i don't mind. FOR FOOD!!

the time has come again for us to gather and pray that tomorrow will be a good day. tomorrow is friday. no, it is not friday the 13th. it is worse. it is friday the SSM. i'm waiter tomorrow, i don't know what i'm suppose to do except clear trays and plates and bowls. imma go ask around later! hahaha! i get nervous over the smallest stuff. i know being waiter at sugarloaf ain't as bad as being a waiter at top table but.. still i'm  rather nervous.

hope tomorrow will be a good day!

vulnerable

not that much of a poet, but here goes. dedicated to someone sad, this is yours

Nameless
what has the world done to you?
why do you look upon the world with shady eyes?
has the liar named love called on you?
has betrayal come your way so painfully
that your heart is ladened with steel,
so heavy you can hardly carry

what are you afraid so of?
why have you sealed up your heart so tightly?
is there no room for negotiations?
is there no one worthy enough
to enter your heart like a king

you've been hiding in there all alone behind those cold and lifeless walls
are you waiting for someone to knock on them
and deliver you from all this darkness
he's coming, he was always there
its time to dismantle those plates of steel;
they won't hold forever
let him hold your hand and lead you
it's a wonderful world out there









That pretty face of yours deserves more than a frown

BESE presentation

today was BESE presentation. i was suppose to wake up at 8am this morning, to do up the powerpoint, the individual fnb thing and my cue cards. i woke up at 10am instead. then i realised my trousers and shirt were not ironed. i mean they were, but they were still alittle crumpled, so i re-ironed. by the time i finished it was about 11.10am. i reached school at about 11.30am. relax people, don be envious i can reach school in just 20 mins, hahaha!!! first thing cheong to library level 6 cheong the ppt. i finished my ppt and cue cards then 1pm went to lab 6 to meet the rest to rehearse. then of course 2pm, BESE lesson, my group was the first to present. all of them were pretty serious presentations. compared to don's rapping presentations last year, hahaha! some said they nearly fell asleep until someone started to make her presentation. hahaha. i guess those who were in the class should know who it was. she was very loud, haha, thats a plus thing though. she always seems fierce, somemore she raised her voice. quite intimidating. she really reminds us of an angry primary school teacher! but don't worry! its not a bad thing! i thought her presentation was really good. just gotta work on the smilin'. haha! another loud one was Aaron i thought.

alot of people pon BESE lecture today, the lecture hall was not even 1/3 full. tomorrow i'm going with albert and purdee to top table! aaron last minute said he coming, so i'll have to ask them whether it's possible to add another person. meeting at 11.15am at the TCA lobby, can't wait! hahaha! FOOD

i saw this commercial on the TV just now! it's super cool, its called the magicwheel. for more information go to www. magicwheel.sg. see!! hahha,it's a cross over between a skate board and a bicycle. someone please go buy! i want to play!! hahaha! it's quite pricey though 350 dollars. i'm looking forward to people riding it on the road

he thought

'there is no love' he thought. his mind is blank. he doesn't know what he's doing, he doesn't know what he is feeling. his fingers move as if possessed, he continues to type on, he doesn't know what he's typing, then the msn notice popped out again. it's again one of those convos which pop out with random stuff, telling u about some website, and asking him to visit it. he's listening to 'bell bottom blues' by eric clapton. it's one of his favourite songs of all times. the solo is playing. the tone is simply heart wrenching. the chorus plays on 'do you wanna see me crawl across the floor to you? do you wanna see me beg you to take me back', then his closest friend in poly starts talking to him, he interrupted the song with a nudge, he hears. he stops typing and decides to respond to him. his friend told him not to think dirty. he had previously ask what he meant by 'need woman'. he think it sounds wrong. but he know his friend does not mean it. his friend sometimes say things before thinking, it's all part of his personality too. 'but he is a great friend' he thought. he wonders how school would've been like without him, school would have lonely. 'there's no place for me in school' he thought. it was probably just him being paranoid but, sometimes he feels really lonely. it was just one of those feelings he used to get before he entered tertiary. it's been awhile since he got this feelin'. he knows it only lasts for awhile, he'll wait for it to go away. he doesn't like it. he doesn't like to love anymore. he is afraid to love again, he is afraid of making the same mistakes he used to make. and how everything turned out. he needs close friends whom he can truly trust and feel peaceful and easy around, people whom he can dig out his heavy heart and lay it onto the table for them. 'love is such a burden' he thought. he loves music; he loves slow rock. he loves country by the eagles. these songs make him feel peaceful. and lighten the load on his heart alittle. he loves the guitar, he learned it to make music. but it seems he can't really do it. but it sure help him through the many difficult times in his life. he loves his guitar. he's thinking of what more to write as he listens to a song by the eagles called 'peaceful easy feeling'. he just wants to type, he doesn't know what else to do. he knows he has work to do but he doesn't feel like doing it yet. he just needs to keep typing and thinking to ease his confused head. he pauses. he pauses and he pauses, he doesn't know what to type anymore. but he's still typing, the song repeats, he going to change the song now. then... he decided not to change the song, cuz the song sounded so good. he sighs. he wants to have 'peaceful, easy feeling' like the song's name. he can't think of anything more to type, he's gonna stop here now though he wished he could think of more to type, but he can't.

some changes

see! my blog just more interesting with the Eagles picture! from left: Glenn Frey, Joe Walsh(My fav. Eagle), Timothy B. Schmit and Don Henley! all thanks to Bert. he shift my tagboard up, he put links up for me and of course the hotel california playing in the background! hahaa! thanks dude

back from chalet finally!

i didn't really get to fully enjoy the chalet. but i'm kinda missing it now. hahhaa! it was kinda disappointing how huili was the only one from h11 who turned up when the whole class was invited. hahahaha! but its alright, at least one came, hahaha! everyone's going to have to pay more for the chalet, sorry guys. didn't manage to keep costs down.

Monday: checked in at 3pm, before that eeling, quanhao, SC came to my house to help with the food. carry to chalet. luckily they came to help if not i'd have been dead. hahaa! my sis helped too. we had dinner at subway. the first time i didn't eat a footer, wasn't really hungry but i did have my double meat again! i ate the subway melt. after that went to get maggi mee etc. thats all for the first day, not much stuff. i slept on the floor, i think peiwen was really nice to have asked to over to the other room to sleep. but then when she woke up me up i was already on the verge of falling asleep loh. after i moved to the other room, they only slept 1 hour later, so very noisy, hahaha! but it was interesting listening to them talk.

Tuesday: i seriously cant tell ya much because i was in school for psycho project. damn. hahhaa. we did the filming of the psycho project in a day. but that one didn't work out. so today went film again. we finished in an hour. not bad sia, quite fast. then it was the BBQ at night. everyone ate alot i think. i guess thisis the HTM culture. hahaha! i slept early that night, while other people went to see bapoks at changi. ask me why? I GOT PSYCHO MEETING THE NEXT DAY. i slept quite peacefully that night. shared a bed with bert. theysaid my snoring was thunderous, and the combination of snorings constituted a symphony. hahaha!

Wednesday: today i had psycho meeting again, went to school edit video with esther, not the one from 07, this esther is from BSG. yongjian couldn't make it. we left after we figured out how to transfer the video and edited everything. BUT it was for naught becasue we refilmed the video in the library cuz the previous video was too noisy. i reached the chalet at 3.30pm, everyone had aleady gone to pulau ubin to play. i did preparations for the steamboat alone until they came at about 7pm. damn sian. no one to talk to, no one helping me. not many people stayed over today, abvout 10 i think, or less.

Thursday: esther smsed us that the video was too noisy so 12.15 we met at the library. of course before that i was still at the chalet, so must cheong home bathe then go tp. i went to get guitar strings after the meeting. after went home, SLEEP. hahaa!

thats all for these few days, too bad we didn't take any photos during the chalet. damn. i hoped everyone enjoyed the chalet! thank you everyone who helped out especially eeling, SC and quanhao! thank you all those who came!!

pictures from ncc chalet!

Don't worry, he's wearing clothes



This is Say yien and his legs blocking the camera


hahaha! Wenyong stole the camera when we were all ready


not bad except the heads kena cut off


NCC chalet was great fun, hahaha!

Cindy's birthday celebration!

we went downtown east to celebrate cindy's birthday yesterday night. that cindy ah... birthday girl then made us wait so long, hahaha, we had our dinner at arnold's BBQ chicken. we waited for cindy inside the restaurant for a long time. i had korean charbroiled. it's chicken leg meat korean style. haha, not bad i guess? after that we went to aranda country club to listen to live performance! they played hotel california! the guitarist was really good! the solo is imba!! hahaha! it was incredible how they made the song sound so good with just 2 guitars. i drunk the most beer in my life last night, i finished 4 mugs plus about one-third of another mug. it amounts to about alittle more than one jug. and i didn't get drunk! not bad not bad,it seems i can hold my liquor quite well. it was really fun with the company.

Here's a song to share; what happens when guys are bastards



It wasn't really sad the way they said good-bye
Or maybe it just hurt so bad she couldn't cry
He packed his things, walked out the door and drove away
And she became the girl from yesterday

He took a plane across the sea
To some foreign land
She stayed at home and tried so hard to understand
How someone who had been so close could be so far away
And she became the girl from yesterday

She doesn't know what's right
She doesn't know what's wrong
She only knows the pain that comes from waiting for so long
And she doesn't count the teardrops
That she's cried while he's away
Because she knows deep in her heart
That he'll be back someday

The light's on in the window; she's waiting by the phone
Talking to a memory that's never coming home
She dreams of his returning and the things that he might say
But she'll always be the girl from yesterday
Yeah, she'll always be the girl from yesterday

KILL ME I NEED FOOD!

I'M HUNGRY, ALL THAT TALK ABOUT FOOD IS MAKING ME HUNGRY!! UNAGI! SASHIMI! ALL AT SAKURA! I WANT SAKURA!! I WANT FOOD!

I'm at chalet!

i called the children's home today, but the home said it was already fully booked for the whole of june and july. i just read my mail and donovan sent a mail about the TP CSC organising spring cleaning for old folks. i think the CSC means community service club. this certainly put my mind to ease, i dunno how else we're gonna find other stuff to do.

anyway, i'm at NCC chalet now, the great pals from secondary school. great friends. although the chalet was alittle too expensive. hahaa! no choice, because there're not alot of people here. 28 dollars a person and we're not complaining. hahaha! everyone's doing their own stuff now, some cheonging psp, some playing cards, some watch anime and some sleeping. 2 of them have training tomorrow yet they still stayed over. a pity not everyone is here. i guess tomorrow there'll be more people coming. i hope. i went to aranda country to watch the live performances again with alan and wenyong, we shared a jug of tiger beer. too bad we went late, we only heard about 6 songs then they went off. anyway, george is now having chalet at K block and my sis is having her chalet afew rooms away. wtf...? what a coincidence.

my ass is hurting now. sitting on the really hard ground. i don't why it just hurts sitting on the ground here, it seems especially hard. wth. hahaha! i've finished my part of the BESE project already. Dining and Gift giving, i think my parts amounted to about 1500 words already, hahaha! half of the minimum requirement already sia. think i'll need to cut later once i get the rest of the parts from my members. oh yeah something to add to my to do list Basics of entrepreneurship!!!! haven't come up with anything, gonna have to soon, must send grace chia by this week for her to look through.

lots of stuff to do

i shall make a list of the things i have to do before i forget, then i can come and refer if i really do forget

1. call children's home, anyway, think bringing the children out not feasible anymore, hahaha, it's actually quite expensive to charter a bus. so think we'll be going over to visit the children and play games with them instead.

2. do my BESE report, i've just finished my 'dining' part, hmmm.. or am i finished? hahaha! even if it's not it should be at least 90% lah, i still have my 'gift-giving' part to do, after that i'm done, then they will all send me their parts, stuff everything in, organise, edit, go through it again, wah la! we'll be done with BESE.

3. Psychology project, now rather confusing with one of group members working during the holidays, then dunno how to organise the thing.

4. continue with chalet preparations. sorta settled my budget already actually. some stuff not added in. hope many people will come!

5. pack bag for tomorrow's NCC chalet. bring laptop to do work. sian.

6. i think we're suppose to go out for field trip on our own for the city tour right?? alright, so must remind group mates!

thats all for now, what i can remember anyway.

holidays so far

the holidays so far have been really boring, really don't know what to do with it except do projects and organise the chalet. i'm really afraid i'll lose money sia, i've been spending alot of time on my planning lately, but it's not foolproof yet. nothing's foolproof, who knows, maybe everyone suddenly cannot come, hahahaha! then i eat the bbq food myself! hahaha! worse case scenario.......

it's probably too far fetched but well.. i have to start planning how much to rebate the people who are only coming for the BBQ and not staying. from past experiences, these things have been happening since the start of time. today i've been doing work, BESE project, i've learnt not to do things at the last minute, especially since the chalet is on the last week. everyone reading this! faster go do ur projects!! later too much work then cannot come chalet how?! hahaha! i hope the 2h11 people will come too. i hope the chalet will be noisy and full of people! i hope those who can't go, will be able to come. i hope it's not about the money. if it is, they don't have to pass me the money immediately. i'm in no hurry to get the money but i really hope everyone can come for the chalet!!! talking about money, i got 2 chalets this holiday, the first one is NCC chalet which starts on this coming monday until wednesday. BROKE LOH. hahhaah!

i'm calling the children's home tomorrow to check if we could bring the children out to play on wednesday. abit too last minute but yeah... hahaha! cheong! if we are going to bring them out, there'll be alot of stuff to settle. like transportation.. food.. bla bla bla. things like that. my point of view is that it is no point if we just go down to the home and help out. it's not like they couldn't manage. and it's not as if we were going down regularly from then on. if we really wanted to make the kids happy, we should bring them out and play! i hope the home will approve of the visit tomorrow, i thinki should start drafting out a proposal like..... now. hahaha!

This is the reason why Don Henley is my favourite song writer

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
...People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us,
Doesn't keep me warm

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, Baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

Holidays!

i guess you can say my holidays have started since my mid semester tests are over and since the proficiency test tomorrow isn't really considered a mid semester test. but it's giving me more stress than the accounting paper gave me. i wouldn't say i'm stressful, it's just more pressuring. get what i mean. hahaha!

anyway, today i spent the whole day thinking about the chalet. not really the whole day, i slept alot today too. i sent emails to 1H07 and 2H12 through albert. hope everyone can come if not i really will kui ben. i already planned a budget in case of people not being to make it and stuff. i tried to do worst case scenario as much as possible. as much as i want the chalet to be succesful, i can't fork out anymore extra money. at least i try to minimise. i'm paying for everything first. planning is hard work, i think i need to get a confirmed list of people going for the chalet if not shit happens then i end paying for alot of stuff like the way i organised stuff in the past. but it ain't gonna happen this time dammit.

and i just realised.... ALBERT!! WHY U SEND 2H11, THAT EMAIL IS FOR 1H07 AND 2H12 LAH! kao. later they kena frightened come for BBQ also must pay so much then they don't wanna come alrei. i'm gonna go draft out an email for the 2H11 now. hai... then start asking for confirmations.